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Who is Mohanji?

Mohanji’s State of Mind

By

Yashik Singh

The Many Faces of Moahnji.

The Many Faces of Moahnji.

As our spiritual master, we need to emulate Mohanji in every way. We see him smiling, laughing, in deep concentration, playing cricket, engaging in deep meditation and doing the mundane activities of life. During all of these times, irrespective of the activity that he is doing, he is always calm. I remember times when Gurudeva was here in South Africa and I was panicking because we were late or if something was not working out and in all of this Mohanji was always calm. While I was rushing and driving somewhere, Mohanji was calmly staring out of the car window. While I was panicking that someone late, Mohanji was sitting in the lounge with his eyes closed, patiently waiting. Now that I reminisce about these moments, I wonder what was going on in Mohanji’s mind at those moments that allowed him to be so calm amidst the busy environment.

Mohanji has never preached that one must give up living in the world and retire to a forest and live your days under a tree. In fact, he teaches the opposite. He asks you to live in the world, work, earn a living, interact with all those around you, but in spite of all these activities, your inner space should be calm and clean. You inner space should be bursting with spiritual light, so much so, that even in the busiest of markets, you are still. I see this in Mohanji. Even at the busiest of times, he eyes reflect only calmness. How does he do this? What is his mind thinking about all the time, so that, even while amidst a huge crowd of people pushing and screaming while walking to the riverbank to do prayers, Mohanji is so calm? Is he occupying his mind with a secret mantra? He is continuously using his mind to visualise Lord Shiva or some calming image like mountains or a lake? Is he continuously thinking about his mission and the seva foundation? Understanding this, to me, is a step closer to merging with Gurudeva’s consciousness and reaching the goal of moksha.

Who can fathom what the eyes of a Master see?

Who can fathom what the eyes of a Master see?

The activity of the mind can be measured with sophisticated equipment available to us in this day and age. But in order to measure this, we need to understand a little about the brain. The brain is made up of millions of connections called neurons. Whenever we do anything, the neurons discharge an electrochemical signal, that activates other neurons and cause them to discharge an electrochemical signal, which in turn causes other neurons to discharge more electrochemical signals. Thus, even the smallest of movements, will cause millions of neurons to synchronously discharge electrochemical signals. The electrical component of these signals can be measured using sensors on the scalp of the head. This is called an electroencephalogram or an EEG. So this means that if you blink, millions of neurons produce and electric current or brain wave that can be measured. If you are afraid you produce a brainwave that can be measured. Every thought, every emotion, every activity or movement of the body, will produce a brainwave that can be measured.

Figure 1: EEG waves shown at different times.

Figure 1: EEG waves shown at different times.

There are normally four types of waves that are produced by our mind/brian. These are called Alpha, Beta, Theta, and Delta. Alpha waves are normally produced when you are relaxed and when you are in a state of complete rest. These waves change to Beta waves when you engage in an activity like walking or even thinking ordinary random thoughts as we all do at every second. Most of us are always thinking about something or the other…. What work do we have to do, what we did yesterday, what are the plans for tomorrow etc. Theta waves occur during when you are meditative or when you are between the awake and sleep state. Delta waves only occur during a very deep sleep when you are completely detached from your surroundings. These waves are shown in figure 1.

Living in a world that allows access to portable EEG machines is a great blessing. A scientist in Belgrade, Dr Goran R, contacted Mohanji to actually measure his brain wave functions. He came to test Mohanji at a random time, without giving Mohanji any time to prepare in any way. Mohanji did not have any time to do pranayama or meditation. He quickly attached the electrodes of the portable EEG machine onto strategic places on Mohanji’s head. He measured Mohanji’s brainwaves during a completely awake state and during the time he was meditating. The electrode positioning is shown in Figure 2. The results are shown in Figures  3 – 5.

Figure 2: Shows the electrode positioning on Mohanjis head

Figure 2: Shows the electrode positioning on Mohanjis head

Figure 3 shows that there is definitely lots of activity that happens in the third eye region. The closer the activity colour is to red, the more activity is registered by those electrode sensors. The red, yellow, green and cyan colours show lots of activity in the third eye. What is of significant interest is that only the Delta and Theta waves register activity. This is indicative that waves being produced are the ones when you are in a deep meditative state and you are detached from your surroundings. No Beta waves were read. This shows that there are no waves being created by thoughts. This is astounding! This implies that Mohanji has no thoughts the way we do. He does not think about the past or the future, no thinking about who offended him, no regrets… He has no thoughts at all. This was also confirmed in Figure 4. Only waves produced by a meditative state and a detached state were found. No waves from a busy mind were recorded.

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Figure 4: Shows the activity at the crown chakra

Figure 3: Showing the different brainwaves at the third eye region

Figure 3: Showing the different brainwaves at the third eye region

Figure 5 also produced very surprising results. Hardly any overall activity was recorded in the external electrodes. The only time a reading was measured was during the time of physical movements, like blinking. Again, this is scientific proof that there is no thought activity happening in Mohanji’s mind. This type of activity is only found in deep meditation, indicating that Mohanji is ALWAYS in a deep meditative state.

Figure 5: Shows the activity on the various electrodes on Mohanjis head

Figure 5: Shows the activity on the various electrodes on Mohanjis head

This state of no-mind that is one of the major characteristics of Mohanji has been proven beyond a doubt using technology of today. When Mohanji speaks of moving to a “mindless” state, it is not just theory from the Vedas. It comes from direct experience. So how does Mohanji operate? He operates purely from his consciousness. He works from that formless bliss state that we call God. He always tells us “in the depth of silence you can hear the voice of God”.

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2014 Navarathri Experiences at Merudanda Ashram

Yantra representing the Holy Mother.

Yantra representing the Holy Mother.

Merudanda Ashram celebrated Navarathri 2014 with love, joy, playfulness and lots of dedication to the Holy Mother and our loving GuruJi Shree Mohanji. This navarathi had everything; miracles, Mohanji listening to our inner most desires and fulfilling it, feeling the presence of our GuruJi at all times and offering very rare and special pujas (ceremonies or rituals). The festivals kicked off with worshiping Mohanji and invoking our Divine Mother Bagalamukhi. Every day we offered sahasranam (1000 names of the deity) and yantra (geometrical form representing the deity) puja to the Holy Mother.

Kalsa representing the Holy Mother

Kalsa representing the Holy Mother

But the highlight must have been the Durga Puja on Sunday. Abhishek and his wife, as well as my parents drove down to Durban that weekend and without knowing about the prayer, were drawn to the temple that weekend. It was a lot of hard work preparing all the items for the puja, and I’m sure many people got tired with how meticulously I like everything to be prepared. A puja is not just sitting there when the mantras are being said. A puja is getting everything ready the day before, cleaning the temple, cooking parsad (food offered to deity, Guru or God, before being consumed) cleaning yourself before you pray, dressing up… Everything… It is a mindset that you cultivate during that time. Everything was checked and double checked the night before. Garlands for the deities were made and tried on so that they fit perfectly. All that we can do must be done, and the rest is left up to the divine.

Preparations for the ceremony.

Preparations for the ceremony.

The puja started with offerings to the principle deity of the temple, our Guru Mohanji. We then invoked Mother Lalita Tripurasundari into a kalsa (water pot covered with coconut and worshiped as the deity)  and began worshiping her. There was such a divine feeling in the air. Peace and love seemed to fill every cell of our bodies. The energy flowed form Mohanji and during the puja many people felt as if Mohanji was walking around and giving everyone shaktipat (energy transfer from the Guru bestowing immense blessing and evolution).

Eventually the time came to offer her a fresh garland of flowers and a garland make out of lime and rudraksha (dried seed of a specific tree which has special significance on the path of Shiva). I happily offered the red, yellow and white garland that we made the night before. To my surprise the garland was small!!!!!! How could this happen? The night before, in front of everyone sitting at the dining room table, I measured the garland against the coconut and it fitted perfectly. It covered the top of the coconut to a good few inches below the coconut. And now it was not even fitting comfortably around the coconut. Did I make a mistake? I then offered the lime garland which was supposed to be very big and was supposed to cover the entire kalsa. That too was small!!! What was going on!!! I looked carefully at the kalsa, and then it dawned on me. As I looked at the coconut I realised that the coconut had grown. As we did the pranapratishta (imbuing of energy and consecration) of the Kalsa the coconut representing Devi, it grew and that is why both the garlands that we measured the night before did not fit.

During this puja every family that attended got the opportunity to do a full Shreechakra Navavarana Pooja as per the Khadgamala vidhi. This is a very sacred secret prayer and everyone enjoyed it so much. There was so much of joy and happiness and this puja immediately brought prosperity to the lives of some devotees. Some devotees reported that their family circumstances improved the next day, some devotees business challenges were solved etc.

Some attendees and families who joined in the celebration.

Some attendees and families who joined in the celebration.

During this puja, we also hoisted the flag for the Merudanda Ashram temple. This is the very first time, that I am aware of, that a flag make from rudrakshas were offered. Certainly this is the first in Africa, if not the world. The flag was not completed totally, but we did not want to lose out on this precious time. The flag has three stages representing past, present and future and well as the three gunas (three qualities or constituent energies of existence). So far, 2160 rudrakshas were used to make the jhanda (flag), but more will used to finish it up. The flag consists of six domes, and three conch shells (six more will be added). It stands right in front of the temple and asks as a reminded to centre yourself on your spine. The making of the flag and the emotions that went with it, is a subject of another blog. But I would like to mention that at a time when we felt it might not work out, Mohanji showed his presences and gave a blessing. An Aum sign materialised in water.

The janda or flag made of rudraksha beads. The first of its kind in Africa.

The janda or flag made of rudraksha beads. The first of its kind in Africa.

Mohanji listens to every prayer of yours, whether you verbalise it or not. Twice he did this for me this Navarathri. The first dealt with a murthi (statue) of Mother Saraswathi. I wanted to get a murthi of Mother Sarashwathi that was silver so that it matched the one we have of Mother Kali. The one currently in the temple is very small and old. But it was too expensive for me to afford. Many times I saw the murthis at a prayer shop and each time I sadly put it down after looking at the price tag. This Navarathri I just surrendered it to Mohanji. While walking in the same prayer shop I had been to many many many times, I was talking to him. I said that I would like a Mother Saraswathi for the Ashram this navarathiri but I can only spend a certain amount of money. I told him that I can only tell him what I would like, and that he knows best. I reluctantly went passed where the murthis are kept, and suddenly my eyes spotted the Mother Saraswathi that I always liked. BUT, this time there was a mistake on ONE of the murthis. It was marked down to less than half the price. EXACTLY the amount I had said I have to spend on the deity. Even the staff at the shop were supprised. They double checked the price bar-code, and it went through the till. We all looked at each other and I had a broad smile, knowing that this “mistake” was the doing of Mohanji.

Divine feet of Rajyogi Mohanji.

Divine feet of Rajyogi Mohanji.

The second wish I had was to get a small granite janda that I have seen is so many temples in Durban. It’s a smaller version of the janda that is usually kept between the flag and the main deity. I knew I could not order one from india because the Murthis we ordered were already on their way, and it would be too expensive to ship it alone. I admit I was sad and I felt disappointed that I let Mohanji down and I should have been more aware. A few days later I get a call from one whom I lovingly call “Uncle Yogi” and he told me that one deity we had ordered from India is here. Of course I rushed over and picked the deity up and I see this small janda in the box!!! It must of course be my friends’ who had also sent some things down. I felt even more disappoint in myself. But after speaking to him, he said that it was not his!!!! The person that carved the murthi added it to the box!!!! Can you believe it!! Mohanji does it again. He inspired the carver to give it to us for free and he did not even tell us that he added this to the box. I was so happy. My Joy knew no bounds.

This are some of the experiences we had during Navarathri 2014. I hope you enjoyed the writeup and that you will join us at Merudanda Ashram for the other functions planned for this year.

Written by Yashik Singh

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Mohanji – The Heart of Kailash

A loving and sweet devotee of Mohanji had such a wonderful “dream” of Mohanji. This vision truly is a message for all of us. She has kindly offered to share her dream:

There stood Mohanji, the same Mohanji in different shading

There stood Mohanji, the same Mohanji in different shading

“There stood Mohanji, the same Mohanji in different shading, under different colour spotlights, I was asked by The Divine, White light to choose one. Normally I go for green, red or even yellow but this time I choose grey, charcoal. It was the colour of Kailash. I choose Mohanji surrounded by grey. Then I get a clear instruction from Pure Light: “The more Mohanji touches soul beings the darker he gets (not dark soul, but he will resemble Kailash)”. “He becomes the heart of Kailash, Shiva himself, his physical appearance will be Kailash”. Oh my gosh “The Heart of Kailash.”

This communion with the divine is mind blowing. Mohanji was seen with different lights that illuminated him. His color changed from red to green to blue and so may other different colors. This indicates that Mohanji is a reflection of our own mind. We see Mohanji with the condition of our mind. Some need a father figure and see Mohanji as a father. Some see Mohanji as a teacher, a friend, a Guru, a brother, even a menace to society and a fraud. But these are all only a reflection of what is in our own mind.

But once we see past the conditionings of the mind we start seeing the true Mohanji. We require light to see with our physical eyes. Without light, the physical eye can not see. Similarly when we see without the conditioning of our mind we see the truth. That is symbolically shown when the color “grey” was chosen in the communion. A dark color showing the absence of the illusion of light that we are conditioned to see with. Grey also represents ash; the sacred ash which is symbolic of total annihilation of all terrestrial identifications. This is the same ash that Shiva wears on his body. It has great symbolism.

Mohanji is the every essence of Kailash.

Mohanji is the every essence of Kailash.

Once we see without seeing, we reach a state where we experience (not see) Mohanji and at that time we realise that Mohanji is the “Heart of Kailash”. Kailash represents that formless powerhouse that holds the universe together. Kailash is like the mountain that equally helped devas (gods) and asuras (demons) to churn the ocean of milk. That non-biased entity that sustains the universe by “just being” and not by intentionally acting.

He is the every energy of the universe that sits still witnessing and sustaining.

He is the every energy of the universe that sits still witnessing and sustaining.

Mohanji is the very essence of Kailash. Yes he is Guru, friend, protector, giver of spiritual blessings etc…. But he is more than all of these. He is the every energy of the universe that sits still, witnessing and sustaining. He is the “Heart of Kailash”.

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Mohanji and the Path of Pathlessness as I See it

By Hein Adamson

I first met Mohanji 3 years ago and in that time I have learned a lot and seen a lot. I have had the privilege of seeing my Guru in different contexts and situations and I have spent close, intimate time with him for extended periods. Mohanji’s Path, the Path of Shiva, the Path of Pathlessness, is both challenging and at the same time effortless, simple and yet mysterious, plain yet indescribably beautiful. The purpose of this writing is to share some of the things I have learned and seen, to share some of the pitfalls and glories of the journey thus far.

The Love Unconditional and the Love Relentless

The Love Unconditional and the Love Relentless

The Love Unconditional and the Love Relentless

One of the things that drew me to Mohanji is that he lives by what he teaches. He embodies and exemplifies his teachings and the fundamental teaching, the base of his tradition, is unconditional love. I have never seen or experienced anyone who expresses that as explicitly as he does. I have seen him spending hour after hour and day after day concerned for an individual half a world away, he will not rest until he has made every conceivable effort to bring some relief and solace to one who is suffering, who is lonely, who needs a helping hand or who needs to feel that someone cares.

Of course, we are free and we often choose to suffer as I myself have chosen many times. But Mohanji never lets us go, he walks with us every step of the way, in my case, every need is being taken care of and provided for by my Guru, from the totally mundane like food and shelter, to the totally sublime like purpose, elevation and belonging.

I have often disregarded his guidance and his teachings only to fall flat on my face and come crawling back to his feet and time after time, without fail, he welcomes me with open arms. Many people have said negative things about me to Mohanji, to the effect that he is wasting his time on me and a host of other discouraging things, but he never sways, he has remained objective and pulled me up inch by inch. I have nothing to offer, I have no skills which could be exploited and no money from which he might profit, it’s all love and only love.

I am not the only one either, I know of a few cases in which he personally sponsored seekers and devotees to enable them to travel with him, to join him on a retreat or to take a pilgrimage with him and there is zero expectation of return from anyone. It goes even further even that: many people who have been on the receiving end of gifts from Mohanji, who have had life transforming experiences in his presence, have, in the height of ingratitude, betrayed these gifts and gone so far as to spread the most heinous and brazen falsehoods about him. Yet despite this he remains unaffected and his love remains undiminished, no one is ever rejected, no one’s welcome is ever worn out. Once you are a part of Mohanji’s family, you will never be without family again.

The Master and the Mirror.

The Master and the Mirror.

The Master and the Mirror:

He has no agenda whatsoever outside of delivering to the person who comes in front of him according to their eligibility. He never worries about the future, he never worries about the next year or the next day or the next hour, he flows form one moment to another with a grace and elegance seldom seen in this world. I have travelled with him for 27 uninterrupted days, spending nigh on 24 hrs of the day with him, long enough know that this is genuine and cannot be pretence, no one could maintain that level of grace and flexibility for that long if it weren’t real.

There have been scientific experiments conducted on Mohanji which evince that he has essentially no mental activity (see https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c2fhvrGjWzU ). I once asked him whether he ever meditates and he replied as follows: “I have no mind, what will meditate?” There have been occasions when I am contemplating on Mohanji, trying to better understand who and what he is and arrived at the conclusion that there is no such thing as Mohanji. What we are seeing when we look at Mohanji is nothing more or less than a reflection of ourselves. He is a perfect mirror, empty, pure and objective. The Masters all share this quality of emptiness and reflection, they become the person who is in front of them. When I came to him with doubt, he reflected doubt, when I came to him with anger, he reflected anger and when I came to him with love, he reflected love. I have seen this time and again with many people who have come in contact with him. He always says that his job is to guide us to ourselves, to reveal ourselves. I often think of Mohanji and become very uncomfortable, I have to wonder, at those times, why am I feeling this way when he represents love and liberation? Contemplating thus I inevitably come to the point where I realise that I am not uncomfortable at all, it is the “devil in me” that becomes restless. But what is it? What is the devil in me? That’s an easy question to answer: It is my mind…

The Infinite and the Mind.

The Infinite and the Mind.

The Infinite and the Mind:

For the vast majority of us the only operating platform we have ever known is the mind. The mind through which we perceive the world is little more than a bundle of impressions and conditioning, it is a garbage bag where we keep all of our baggage and our junk. Mohanji and the rest of the Enlightened Masters throughout history have always been without this garbage bag. They operate not from the mental plane but from the plane of consciousness which has no boundary and no limit. This, I think, is why we find it so difficult to understand them.

We try with limited faculties to understand the unlimited, we try to understand divine expressions using terrestrial means. Try as you might, you will not succeed. I have tried, I have tried my entire life, over and over again to grasp the consciousness that Mohanji represents, to fit it into some sort of neat criteria or frame, to give it some sort of identity, but it is too alive to be put into a box that way, just when I think I know what he is about, he frustrates my conclusion by expressing something else. The fault, I have realised, lies not with him but with me. He is available, he is accessible, he is near, but to access Mohanji you have to become Mohanji and to become Mohanji, Hein must cease to be, he has to die his natural death every day.

The Spontaneous and the Liberated.

The Spontaneous and the Liberated.

The Spontaneous and the Liberated:

I have never known Mohanji to be contrived in any way, nor have I known him to plan anything beforehand. Everything happens now, expressions happen now, giving happens now, liberation happens now. This moment is his only reality, he completes what can be completed now and leaves nothing half-finished with the idea that he can do it later. Whatever comes his way is accepted fully, he offers no resistance to any development or situation nor does he hold on to any emotions. I have seen him put on a show of anger for the sake of a seeker, he will blow up entirely and then be laughing the very next moment. He is not bound or enslaved by these expressions. He remains detached.

There was at one point going to be an ashram in India which fell through. At a time when he existed basically as a nomad with no base and really no rest, a place to settle would have been a welcome relief. But despite the fact that it did not work out, he went about his business as though nothing had happened. He has faced revilement, jealousy, rejection and open enmity but continues to flow and to love unconditionally no matter the circumstance.

The Purpose and the Mission.

The Purpose and the Mission.

The Purpose and the Mission:

Mohanji is the most intense and productive person I have ever met. There is literally not a moment which passes him by without being utilised. He sleeps very little, sometimes as little as 3 hours a night for a few nights in a row and even then is busy functioning and carrying out his mission on other planes and dimensions. Every breathe he takes, every movement, is loaded with clarity and purpose. He is totally and completely purpose driven, 24 hours of the day, without stint, without interruption.

On a terrestrial level, he is always travelling, going from one program to the next, delivering clarity and elevation through his discourses and meditations, which are always free of charge. On other levels he delivers subtle experiences to many people across the world in the various time zones. Sometimes he fights battles on astral and other levels for the sake of his devotees, the signs of which are visible even on his physical body. He often gets ill from absorbing and churning the karmic baggage and negativities of the people he comes in contact with. He never brings any attention to the subtle work he does and stoically takes everything in his stride.

The purpose is so simple it beggars belief: Liberation. Liberation from habit, from limited patterns and from conditional thinking. In short: liberation form anything and everything which could bind us in any way.

The Tragedy and the Betrayal

The Tragedy and the Betrayal

The Tragedy and the Betrayal:

When the truth confronts you, you have two options: Heed the voice of truth, take the opportunity to release your conditioning and preconceived notions, to transform, to liberate yourself. Or, kill the one who speaks the truth, scandalise him (As in the case of Sai Baba, Mata Amritanada Mayi and Bhagawan Nithyananda), crucify him (As in the case of Jesus) or poison him (As in the case of Socrates and Osho). In short, to shut him/her up as quickly as possible and get him to stop saying things which might require me to re-evaluate my life and my priorities.

This message is in part to make an appeal to anyone who might come in contact with a Living Master, be it Mohanji or any other: let go your limitations, let go your ideas about what a saint should or should not be. Drink up his presence and his gifts with humility and gratitude. Above all, do not miss the opportunity they represent. We never know how long it will be before another True Master comes to us, it could take many lifetimes before we once again attain the eligibility required to benefit from an enlightened presence.

There is, to my mind, no greater tragedy than to miss this chance. I know very little, but I do know that once you have surrendered to someone like Mohanji, to a True Guru, everything in your life happens for one reason and one reason only: To liberate you. It does not matter how the Guru expresses himself, what he says or what he does, his purpose is to set you free, and your purpose is let him do it.

The Family and the Unity.

The Family and the Unity.

The Family and the Unity:

I have seen and heard about Mohanji coming into contact with many great Saints and Masters both living and not. Through Mohanji, many have experienced Jesus, Mahavatar Babaji, Sai Baba and Gorakh Baba to name but a few. On a terrestrial level any Master who meets Mohanji or Mohanji’s devotees has always shown love and affection. Masters like Vittal Babaji who is the standard bearer of the Dattatreya Tradition, Devi Amma from Whitefield in Bangalore, Baba Nataraja in America, Swami Chaitanyananda who has been entrusted with caring for Vasishta’s sacred cave and Gorkhe Guruji in India have all welcomed Mohanji with love and openness. We are one family, we are one soul. The Golden Tradition of Liberation and Love is everywhere. That is what Mohanji represents and that is what he makes available to us by his presence in our lives.

The Path and the Destination

The Path and the Destination

The Path and the Destination:

I am ignorant and as such will not go into much detail about the depths of the Path of Pathlessness. I will only say that here, there are no rules. Nothing is forbidden and nothing is seen as wrong, nothing is even expected of you. All you need to do is be natural and stay connected to the Guru’s consciousness. That is the only practice you need. Elevation, experience and knowledge are all provided by the Master. Surrender and Faith are the only prerequisites. Grace is all you need and grace is showered in abundance.

For me Mohanji is both means and destination. I don’t know about God or enlightenment, but I know that Mohanji can deliver me into the lap of the supreme. Whether I can understand it or not, whether it tallies with my limited notions or not, whether I find it pleasant or not, whatever he gives is absolutely in my best interest.

My eternal Love and gratitude goes to Mohanji now and ever!!

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“It’s Always Too Big or Too Little.”

Saints of all ages have gone through it and it will happen in future as well. This is our society, this is our playground and it is our rules. Who these saints are? and what they think! We are happy in our comfort zones, in a prison of our own though, happy with the same repetitive suffering, singing the same painful song again and again. We don’t want to come out of it. And, if saints try to show us a way out, which looks enchanting at first glance but is not easy to follow and for which we don’t have the courage, we have weapons with which to eradicate them from society.

You know, we don’t always need crucifixion to eradicate them. We have some other ways to kill a personality too. It’s called character assassination. We love to keep a dead saint’s picture on our altar but we don’t have the guts to walk with a live saint.

According to my own knowledge and experience, saints are the channel that we user to commune with Existence. They represent a lifetime opportunity to have a look at the other side. Sorry, I am not going to talk about karma or things of this nature, they are boring and I don’t even know whether they are true or just some made-up stories. But, what I have felt in the physical presence of a saint or one that we call connected, I cannot ignore.

I have been on the roller-coaster ride, of course the mental one, of trying to understand saints and their way of working and I always came to a conclusion which was contradictory to my general belief. Yes, I definitely realised the subtle impact behind that later and wondered why I couldn’t catch those things in the first place. What I understood was that if I have to conclude something, I need past event’s recollection in my mind with which to compare. If I don’t have one, I cannot come to any conclusion and then I start making stories, which are again the same old past event’s reflection with negative emotions. That means there could be some event in the upcoming present about which I could be clueless (no past data to match), then what would I do? If I accept my own inability to understand that event, it is shame on ME (yes, the memory bundle of myself). This means I don’t want to accept my defeat, intellectual defeat which is really painful for my Ego and personality , on the other hand , these saints don’t even have some extraordinary things about them, like being a human with wings, or a human with horns. They look like normal people. Why should I listen or get defeated by them?

Sathya Sai Baba

Sathya Sai Baba, who contributed more than we can ever know.

But I realised that, although saints do not have wings, they can take you to heights which we cannot imagine. They don’ have horns and their protection is invisible but it is surer (If you understand what I mean). I know this is really emotional but I cannot explain how I landed on this. It is like no data of has been found to match in kind. Surrender.

I have been reading life stories of saints. These stories are really fascinating, no doubt about it. But in all these stories I felt one repeating occurrence: the heavy abuse of these saints by the society at the time. Society tried to assassinate them either physically or by abusing their character. Hadiakhan Baba was taken to court, wherein he had to prove that he was the incarnation of the earlier Hadiakhan Baba, he did so and this has been documented. Sathya Sai Baba was accused of trickery and when that was not enough, there was an attempt to implicate him in some sexual scandal. Shirdi Sai Baba was threatened with court and rumoured to have impregnated Radha-Krishna Mayi. Socrates was poisoned. Jesus met with the same fate terrestrially.

Shirdi Sai Baba liberated many by many means.

Shirdi Sai Baba liberated many by many means.

The impact of the work done by the higher consciousness would not be visible immediately, but it is the one thing which we could have seen and felt, especially when looking at the lifespan of the saints who are not in body at this moment. We know that saints have manifested the conventional from unconventional act and this is whole reason we bow to them. Shirdi Sai Baba transformed the village of Shirdi completely. Sathya Sai started so many schools, so many colleges and so many hospitals, not to mention the many other social services of which we are not aware. What did they get out of it?

One of the incidents I would like to narrate is from Bhagawan Nithyananda’s life: This is from the early stages of his life. In this story, he sees a woman walking on the street; he jumps towards her and touches her breast. People on the street seeing the young sannyasi’s hideous act started running behind him and while running Bhagawan Nithyananda says: “This one will live”. People couldn’t catch him and when they gathered around the woman, she disclosed the meaning the sannyasi’s act: She had already lost a few kids in labour. By touching her breast Bhagawan removed something, after which she could give birth to a healthy kid which would live well. The whole purpose of sharing this story is to demonstrate that this woman was a stranger to Bhagawan Nithyananda and the action he performed to bless her was totally unconventional and unacceptable. If we could imagine ourselves on the street that very day when Bhagawan did this act we could see ourselves running behind him in rage for doing this act. I am not blaming ourselves completely, trust me, I am blaming the clarity in the execution of work of the saints which we could never understand.

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Bhagawan Nithyananda, one of the biggest renunciates the world has ever seen.

When we talk about the glories of saints, such as how they removed peoples’ diseases through totally controversial treatment: the treatment which could have enraged the disease; Removing asthma by letting the patient smoke chillum pipe, diarrhoea by ground nut and many more. Actually, it is very common that saints give some uncommon treatment to critical diseases. We all gladly accept these acts of the saints and always admire it. Why? Because these acts don’t alter our basic concepts much and it is acceptable by society and by us because it’s in our immediate favour. But, when the same saints try to shake other basic roots of concepts which are tabooed, then we start to criticise them.

Like I said in the first line, this has happened, is happening and will continue to happen. Masters on our path always say not to marry the guru, marry his consciousness. But we always ignore that line and try to marry the guru’s personality. Definitely when there is personality, there will be expectation and then unfulfilled expectation leads to all this drama. Lord Krishna, one of the biggest personalities to ever walk this earth. We worshiped him and we always refer to him as the God of Gods. The society in his time didn’t even spare. 16008 queens? LOL. Practically impossible. If possible, then that person is definitely not an ordinary human being and we cannot make comparisons or lay blame. Subtlety takes time to reveal itself to gross. Sometimes generations.

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Sri Krishna: Universal Master or Womanizer?

I won’t talk spiritual trash at all, but I want to say one thing: Whenever one wants to form an opinion about anyone, be it a saint or anyone else, please, see how much other people have contributed their own opinion and thought into yours. Presumption and assumption lead a person nowhere, both spiritually and practically. Before blaming someone, look into yourself and ask yourself whether you are worthy of laying blame on someone or whether you have enough understanding to see the whole picture.

Sandeep Mishra , MSc Aeronautical Engineering ,University of Glamorgan, UK

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Experiencing the Guru Tattwa

Written by Neha Parekh and Nilesh Parekh

My journey with Mohanji started just three months back by “accidentally” viewing him on one of Sai Baba’s blogs and since then me and my wife Neha went through his various blogs and you tube videos and felt deeply connected with him.

We were very fortunate to be with him while he was in Canada. We got a very great opportunity to view him very closely and day by day it felt as if we were melting and Mohanji was getting bigger and bigger in us.

Words will always fall short of what one feels, the only thing that I can think of is this Prayer at his lotus feet:

You are the real goal of our life

           we are slaves to our wishes, putting bar to our advancement……
You are the GOD and power
           to bring us up to that stage.
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Nilesh and Mohanji at Bluffers Park.


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Complicated as it may sound in theory, it is as simple as can be! The theory I was born and brought up with made me think “GURU” is someone we pay our respects to, someone we need to be more than cautious while serving, someone who might be annoyed by a little mistake. The fear of incorrect performance would always play on my mind. It would thus be a binding relationship, no free will to be natural as such. This made me a little skeptical while approaching any Saint or Mahatma. But to my amazement: all the barriers, constraints and blocks were demolished a few months ago. It was on 11th April 2014, I was browsing through YouTube in search of a new link for Sai Bhajans. Something on the side caught my eye, it was a link that said: ”Mohanji’s Shirdi Sai experience”. I overlooked it as I usually do not like to open any link besides Bhajans. I scrolled to the next page, and the next, but it was as though this link kept following me, calling me to click. I wondered who this Guru was, but since it said Shirdi Sai,I surrendered at Sai’s Feet that were drawing me as would a magnet to click it. I opened that link and heard Mohanji for the first time in my life, amazing. After a while I felt as though the voice became the background and Mohanji and HIS presence engulfed me. It is hard to explain. My eyes burst out with unknown tears welling in the corner of my eyes: I was Ecstatic. I felt I had FOUND MY BABA. I felt the trembling with me. I was mesmerized by Mohanji’s Presence… I was sure this is My Sai’s Leela. Nilesh walked in just then and I showed him this link, and what happened next? We both were glued to Mohanji and HIS Videos. We would steal time out of our busy routine to be with Mohanji’s blogs and videos, later we would discuss with each other about what we heard or read. Thus Baba started this small satsang between us on daily basis. Thus Baba was bringing us closer as spiritual partners.

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A spiritual family enjoying each-other’s presence

Next day at work, as unusual as it may sound, but I tried frantically calling the numbers available on MOHANJI.org I emailed a couple of ID’s that were listed there. To my amazement, a gushing pour from all IDs came across giving me the necessary info I was looking for. I had to get connected to Mohanji, but little though I knew: HE was already connected with us! J Mohanji Team was so helpful in directing me to MY SOURCE, MY MOHANJI!  Deep Gratitude to Lataji, Ganeshji and the Mohanji’s Office team. I was directed to Charudidi who handles the Canada communication. A wonderful Soul! She helped us by further explaining about Mohanji’s Grace and the different experiences she had during her stay in Muscat, thus strengthening our Faith even more.

I silently started yearning for more. Like my hunger for more of Mohanji‘s spiritual talks was never satisfied. We started following HIS blog where HIS schedule caught our eyes. I silently started wishing for HIM to visit Toronto, but it was not a part of HIS Travel Schedule and secondly, I thought how could a naïve girl like me who is ignorant about HIS stature dare to invite HIM. But to my astonishment, about 3 months from the first connection with HIM over YOUTUBE: MOHANJI WAS WALKING OUT OF THE GATES OF TORONTO AIRPORT WITH OPEN WIDE ARMS. BEARING THE MOST ADDICTIVE SMILE ON HIS FACE. MY PRABHU! MY KRISHNA HAD ARRIVED TO ANSWER SUDAMA’S CALL! UNBELIEVABLE! AND THOSE WORDS: “NEHA I AM HERE FOR YOU”. MELTED MY HEART AWAY! MY HEART DID A THOUSAND SUMMERSALTS. I WAS LIKE A KID IN A CANDY SHOP! J

In this era of kaliyug, not once did I ever think that Lord Krishna would go to Sudama. My Mohanji came in Krishna’s form to fulfill the desires of naïve girl like me. Who knows not what is PRABHU, who is just but blinded by HIS love, who knows nothing besides the DIVINE LOTUS FEET OF MY PRABHUJI! JAI HO!

Since two days prior to Mohanji’s arrival in TORONTO, my heart randomly kept humming two lines of a bhajan to my amazement ,that says:

“KAUN KEHTA HAI BHAGWAAN AATE NAHI” – WHO SAYS GOD DOES NOT APPEAR

“TUM MEERA KE JAISE BULAATE NAHI” – CALL HIM WITH LOVE FAITH AND DEVOTION, HE APPEARS!

We were overwhelmed, our joy knew no bounds. Nilesh and I were behaving as though an we were adolescents falling in love for the first time in their lives. GRACEFUL! WONDERFUL! AMAZING….! OMG! I am at a loss of adjectivesJJJ Mohanji came into our lives walking straight through our hearts and now HE DWELLS WITHIN OUR HEARTS. HE IS IN US AND WE ARE HIM. IT’S AN AMAZING, HEART-MELTING, WARM AND LOVING FATHERLY-MOTHERLY FEELING HE BESTOWED UPON US! WE FEEL ON TOP OF THE WORLD! LIFE COULDN’T HAVE BEEN BETTER THAN THIS! HEAVENLY!

I thought about the theories of Guru that I have learned through my childhood that were all proving wrong.

THE GURU TATTWA INDEED IS: “GURU IS A MOTHER, GURU IS A FATHER, GURU IS A FRIEND, GURU IS A BROTHER, GURU IS UNBINDING AND GRANTS YOU FREE WILL. EVEN IF WE CHOOSE TO LEAVE HIM, HE DOES NOT LEAVE US EVER. ALWAYS CARING, ALWAYS LOVING………HOW CAN GURU BE LIKE GOD?” Was a question my mind bore. BUT THE TRUTH IS: GURU IS WALKING GOD! GOD CHOOSES TO COME IN A FORM OF A GURU TO FULFILL ONE’S NEED TO EVOLVE FURTHER. GURU BHUGWANTA IS MOST AMAZING. Our pain and agony reflects straight on GURU’S heart. HE LOVES US UNCONDITIONALLY. GURU IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL HAPPENING IN ONE’S LIFE. FORTUNATE ARE THOSE WHO ARE BLESSED BY THEIR GURUS.

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Whomsoever offers me a leaf or flower… it is mine anyway

We were very nervous about the programmes in Toronto as this was the first time we were conducting on this scale. But it was Pure Grace of MOHANJI that one after the other all the events rolled smoothly to our amazement. Many were connected; People were flocking to see Mohanji. It was HIS GRACE. The first POWER OF PURITY meditation in Toronto was overwhelming. People were touched. And what can I say about Mohanji’s Shaktipat? Just beyond words. So many souls touched, so many lives transformed, life has a different meaning for many since after meeting Mohanji. GRACE, GRACE AND MORE GRACE!

What could I offer at HIS Feet but my heart full of Love! Selfless service and unconditional Love is what I have learned is the Best offering to my Guruji’s Divine Feet. His teachings are as simple as can be. He said do not get into complicated theories, SPIRITUALITY IS SIMPLICITY. FLOW LIKE A RIVER AND BE A STREAM OF FRESHNESS TO MANY. BINDING IS BLOCKING AND FLOWING IS EVOLVING. GIVING IS HAPPINESS AND SHARING IS BEAUTY OF EXISTENCE. TUNE IN TO NATURE. NATURE TEACHES US SIMPLE LESSONS OF LIFE……CONNECT WITH NATURE AND LOVE ALL UNCONDITIONALLY.

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A Divine Father and His Beloved Child.

The transformation within is inexplicable. Perceptions have changed, preconceived notions have dissolved. All is all a new life where in serving and loving as the main Motto has emerged. From this point in time, nothing is more important than being valuable to the world, being useful to the needy, and being open to changes. SERVING MY GURU BY LIVING HIS TEACHIGS!

To sum up Mohanji’s Grace in a few words is a an impossible task. But In a short span of time spent in Mohanji ‘s Grace, the teachings HE has imparted will remain with us for eternity. HE brought out the true essence of our being. Taught us to leave our prejudices behind, and see all as one. HE inspired us and shook our rigid beliefs, molding us in a manner so simple and effective. So clear yet so possible, HE gave us these tools to use our potential to the fullest. Showering unconditional Love at all times is the main sewa we can offer in Our Prabhu’s Feet

Thus, this experience was a heart drenching, soul touching, and Uplifting.

DIMISHING THE I …. SURRENDER MY HEART AND SOUL IN THE LOTUS FEET OF MY GURUDEV….MY BABA!

GURU TATTWAS IS THE BEST HAPPENING IN MY LIFE……………MOHANJI IS THE BEST HAPPENING IN MY LIFE!

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Inseparable.. We are Family. We are One!!

Liberation……………

Life is full of SURPRISES, at every turn there is some ANXIETY

It makes us CURIOUS at times putting us on an edge that is THRIFTY

Why does it AMAZE us so much? Have you ever wondered about your own INQUIRIES?

We come INNOCENT and SERENE into this WORLD, all alone in our TRANQUIL self.

But we end up in BONDINGS that are STRONGER than the knots in a SHIPSHANK tie

The PROXIMITY with each one in this space gets CLOSER than the actual REALITIES

ATTACHMENTS we fall into even before we realize different  ENTITIES

What are we? Why are we here? And What are we doing   ……

Are some QUESTIONS that are farther than the far from our PRACTICALITIES

What is this that has us BOUND so strongly?

where did it all come from puts  me in a state of utter BEWILDERMENT

It was all here, everywhere, every time…………It was ME who had ACCEPTED this

It was ME who had ADORNED this and walked this path in IGNORANCE and CARELESSNESS

There is a Particle they say in the UNIVERSE…………GOD is the name and everywhere HE RESIDES

HE came to me in a GESTURE so SUDDEN, that it made  my senses PARALYZED

STUNNED I was and ASHAMED I am….. for lost I have the valuable years that were earned by me in my past SPECIES.

Though grateful I am to HIM that The Path HE showed was LIT UP once again by HIS GRACE

A WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE was when HE came walking in my life in the form of a MASTER

A MASTER who showed me who ACTUALLY was me…………..what is the purpose of my LIFE

HE NURTURED me with LOVE and CARE………with ENDURANCE and GRACE

HE held my tiny hand within HIS strong hands and plucked my KARMAS as though RIPENED they were

HE MOTHERED my soul and FATHERED my GROWTH………HE DEMOLISHED my EGO and made me start AFRESH

GRATEFUL indeed I am OH MY GREAT MASTER…….GRATEFUL I AM!

For all THY GRACE and ABUNDANCE OF LOVE SHOWERED ON ME………..

FOR REVEALING MY TRUE SELF……FOR INTRODUCING MY LONG LOST FOUNDATION OF LOVE…….

LOVE IS WHAT YOU ARE MY MASTER… LOVE IS WHAT I AM……….LOVE IS WHAT ALL IS ABOUT…..

LOVE IS THE ONLY LIGHT IN THE WHOLE WIDE UNIVERSE FOR US TO SURVIVE……..

With the KNOWLEDGE IMPARTED BY YOU…AND BY YOUR GRACE SHOWERING CONSTANTLY ON ME.

LIBERATE I WILL FROM THIS MORTAL WORLDLY BEING SOON………

LIBERATE I WILL FROM MY FEELINGS AND SENSES TOO….

LIBERATE I WILL FROM MY OWN BUILT UP WALLS OF LUST AND GREED…

BREAK OPEN I WILL OH MY GREAT MASTER INDEED…………..COZ……

LIBERATION IS WHAT YOU ARE WORKING WITHIN ME TO BE……….

FOR LIBERATION IS MY RIGHT AND REMAINS IN  MY FATHER’S DIVINE LOTUS FEET.

LIBERATION IS  MELTING OF THE “ME” AND MERGING IN “THEE”…..PRABHUJI YOU ARE THE SOURCE OF MY LIFE…..TO SET ME FREE………AI HO

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A True Guru would go to the ends of the Earth for a sincere devotee… Even to Niagara Falls.. :)

JAI HO

PRABHUJI HO

PAAY LAAGU BABAJ

Neha Parekh

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Romancing the Himalayas

Written by Zoran

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At the feet of my Master

Divine Interventions

The journey to the Himalayas with Mohanji was fixed on my mind since year 2012. A group of some of the closest devotees went on to undertake this journey with Mohanji, and came back to their homes completely transformed. I read about their experiences, and I immersed myself in the photos they shared. I could not get a visa back then, so the passion to go to Kailash remained even stronger.

When I came to know that this year, the Chinese lifted their rule that 5 people from same nationality can only get a group visa, I was overwhelmed with joy. My heart and soul was already transported in Kailash, and I immediately started making plans for the trip.

Without the blessing of my wife Anelija this journey would have not happened. She selflessly sacrificed herself so that I can experience Kailash. She didn’t ask for anything, she didn’t put any ultimatums or conditions, she just gave me wings and let me go on this journey. I’m eternally grateful to her. Since we have three little children, she had to take care of them through these 18 days by herself. I wanted to make it easier for her, but how I didn’t know. I talked to Mohanji about this, and prayed silently to him for any help possible. Within a week time a friend of ours came to mind that maybe she can help out since we knew she had babysitting experience. I knew it was Mohanji’s Grace that opened up that possibility of meeting this friend. Some would call this a coincidence, but being a witness to many such Miracles performed so unassumingly by my GuruDev, I knew at that moment His Hand was being involved and divinely intervened.

It was a week before the departure for Kathmandu, when I got an email from the organizers of the Yatra saying that there is a problem with the Chinese visa. The Chinese Government created a new rule that a minimum of three people from same nationality can only get an entry visa. I was the only one traveling from my country so I was advised to immediately send two more passport copies from anyone with same nationality, so that a group visa can be issued. That was the only way. One passport would be my wife’s. But I had no one else available to ask for such a favor. Then I remembered. Two days ago, a friend of mine who comes to the weekly Power of Purity meditations had to send a last minute scan of his passport for an Indian visa. It was late at night, and no printing shop was working at that time so that he can scan and email the passport copy. We were assembling for Satsang and were already late. A voice in me told me – help him, go to your office scan the passport and email it. So, we promptly finished that and continued to Satsang. He needed the visa since he was going to Prashanti Nilayalam in Puttaparthi. The scan of his passport stayed on my office computer, so I only had to call my friend and ask him for the favor and send the copy right away. When I called him, he agreed open heartedly. Talking about divine interventions. Again, I knew whose divine hands were involved in this. :)

I sent the passport copies and I prayed for it all to work, but deep down I doubted. I was so stressed, and had no faith that things will work out. I thought, how will they let me in at the border with a group visa, and two people on it are missing. :)

Accident at Istanbul airport

The day came for flying to Kathmandu and starting the Yatra. I had a connecting flight via Istanbul. My connection was 9 hours difference so I stayed at the airport and while waiting I was reading the “Apprenticed to a Himalayan Master” by Sri M. Sitting at a café, 2 hours from departure, a heavy plastic signboard fell on me. As I stood up to go to the departure gate, I barely touched the construction, and since it was already broken it fell on my hand, and chopped a part of my index finger. At first I didn’t notice I was wounded. Then, when I became conscious I saw blood streaming from my finger. I couldn’t stop the bleeding. The people working at the café were looking at me hopelessly and didn’t know what to do. One of them even brought a glass with ice. Blood was pouring out of my finger and I was feeling slightly in panic and helpless. Finally one of the managers of the café called someone and they soon took me to an emergency room where they managed to stop the bleeding and put a bandage. The doctor said I will be in great pain for days so he prescribed me some painkillers. I was chanting Mohanji’s Gayathri all the time, and prayed to Mohanji for help and for everything to be OK. I had to hurry and catch the plane for Kathmandu. I was protected from a bigger accident. I could have hurt my leg or and eye, and my trip would be finished. This was just a wake up accident, and my awareness levels were already elevated with this event. I knew that I’m in for an even more challenging adventure but I still didn’t know what to expect.

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“Do you see the Celestial Beings?”

The Celestial Beings at Kailashnath Mahadev

We assembled at Soaltee Crowne Plaza Hotel in Kathmandu and had a few days to visit Pashupati Nath Temple, and Budhanilkanta Temple. On our way to the Tibetan border we also visited the Kailashnath Mahadev statue near Kathmandu, the highest Shiva statue in the world with 143 feet (44m). There I had a beautiful communion with Mohanji. The sun was setting down, and the whole scenery was majestic, overlooking the Kathmandu valley.

Standing at the footsteps of the Shiva statue, Mohanji called me to stand next to him and started guiding me into some kind of a trance. He said, “Zoran, look at the horizon where the sun is setting behind the mountains. Now bring your focus down where the city disappears in the haze. Relax your gaze, and look above the haze with half closed eyes right in the space between the horizon and the city, without focusing. Do you see the entities?” As I was following the instructions, I started seeing a multitude of lights shimmering all over the valley. I felt my consciousness expanding effortlessly. There I was next to my Master, and he was revealing another mystery to me. He said, “They are always there, the Celestial Beings. We just need to train ourselves so that we can see them.”

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Crossing the Tibetan border

There was a huge landslide wiping off the only road leading to the Tibetan border. Helicopters were promptly organized and in groups of 5 people we were being transported over the landslide and to the border. The waiting at the helipad seamed like forever. I came first at the flight off ground with Mohanji , Biba, Sumit, and Swami Govinda, and I hoped I will enter the first helicopter with Mohanji. But, though I was in the first five, Phaneendar took the fifth seat. I was quite disappointed, and I thought I will never fly over. Mohanji said that at any moment the helicopters can be called off on a rescue mission since the landslide wiped out a lot of houses on the hills as well, and there were any casualties. I had to learn patience that day, and fly with one of the last groups of people. We came already late and the border was closed so we had to sleep over near the border along a beautiful river that was dividing Nepal and Tibet. That night I developed a high fever. I already started feeling the higher altitude symptoms.

A lot of people were stranded in Nepal and were not being able to go forward to Tibet. Our group was flowing through the challenges as if protected and helped by some higher force.

Next day early we traveled by bus to the Chinese border. It was the moment of truth for me. If I pass the border I felt, I will see Kailash in this lifetime. It seamed I was not the only one being single on a group visa with two “ghost” visa applicants on the paper. The organizers knew what they were doing, and there was no problem whatsoever of entering Tibet for any of us. Our group was consisting of people from 12 different nationalities and we all entered China. It was a miracle again, since the Chinese were very problematic this year with issuing visas. When we crossed the border I was already ecstatic and knew that from then on everything will be uphill. :)

At the Mansarovar lake

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The view that cleanses lifetimes of karmas.

Traveling via Nyalam (12,300ft), and Saga (15,200ft) towards Lake Manasarovar (15,100ft). The hypoxia symptoms were hitting hard. I was having bad headaches, and nausea. The chilly and spicy food made it even worse. I eased it all with a bread and butter diet, and masala and ginger tea.

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The second round of dips next to my Brother

The moment we arrived at the army check point at Lake Manasarovar the hypoxia vanished. The sight of the lake and Kailash on the horizon was a true healing. As soon as we stopped to take the first dips I was good as new. Mohanji was not wasting any moment, so while he entered a small group of us followed him inside. Sumit was helping Father to safely enter the waters since it was quite slippery on the rocks. Mohanji started taking the dips. It was a beautiful sight. I felt Mohanji’s energy was like one of a newborn baby. He was vulnerable as a flower and yet so powerful like a volcano at the same time. When he finished the dips we started doing abisheks oh him and he was blessing us in return by pouring water on our heads. I took the first dip at His feet. The water was ice cold, so each dip blocked the thought process and I was thrown into a state of no-mind. When I exited the lake I saw my body and in my mind’s eye it looked enlightened. My skin, and my toes looked completely different. They looked perfect as they are. :)

Blessed at the Ji’Wu Temple

We accommodated at a guesthouse near the lake with an amazing view and an old temple nearby. On the second day we had a beautiful fire ceremony, and after that another round of dips in the lake.

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Ji’Wu Temple on the hilltop

The night before the Parikrama, as I was relaxing on my bed, a voice in my head was calling me to go to the temple on the hilltop. I was being pulled out of my bed and off I went to the temple. The weather became windy and there was nobody around the temple. Nothing, I thought I was just imagining the voice. And as I decided to go back to the guesthouses, a Tibetan family appeared out of nowhere. I started following them around the temple, feeling pulled by something. Then, an old man who I guess was the guardian of the temple showed up and they started talking something in Tibetan. Then he opened a door leading to one cave. It was a man made cave where a lot of saints were meditating I came to know. They started touching the stones with carvings on them, and prostrating at the photos of the saints. I was following and repeating all the rituals they did. As I was prostrating I was feeling all the saints blessing me to have a smooth Parikrama. That’s why I came, I thought. I came to be blessed. Then, we entered one bigger cave with lots of photos, lamps, and Tibetan symbols inside. I prostrated again, thanked the saints for blessing me and made the exit. It was getting dark so I rushed back to the guesthouses while a group of 5-7 dogs were barking and making a wild pack so I rushed even more. :) I came back safely to my room and quickly went to bed. That night I slept like a baby, and woke up in the morning fresh anew and ready for the Parikrama.

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The Mighty Kailash

Parikrama starts

There is nothing one can do to prepare for this kind of pilgrimage. The body’s reaction to low oxygen is unpredictable. One could be very well fit at sea level altitude but at 5700m one’s fitness is irrelevant. The relevance falls to Grace and surrender only. I had a knee and ankle pain for months. I was sure I’ll have difficulty with the long distance walking. But, as that day started all of the pain was gone. The first five kilometers walking were bearable and enjoyable with the streams and mountains. The second half of the journey was horrific. I could only make few steps and then was grasping for oxygen. My body was screaming for rest. It was overwhelming. Luckily, I took a good advice to hire a porter for my backpack. I was against paying someone to carry my bag since it my mind it was as if I’m cheating the experience of Kailash. But, I was advised and realized it was all an ego trip story. My porter was a warrior. It was his 20+ Parikrama trip so far, and the whole thing was a child’s play for him. In many ways it was intimidating, and he was pushing me and pulling me all along. I had to stop and pause many times to catch hold of my own pace. It was a key moment for me – catching my own pace. All along I was either rushing to catch up with Mohanji, or the porter was pulling me to keep up with his pace. When I arrived at the guesthouse at Hirapuch camp, overlooking North face of Kailash, all I wanted was to crash on my bed. And that’s what I did. One thing I was certain of – if I was to make it the next day it would be only with Mohanji’s Grace, nothing else. My body was already depleted, and there was no way it would be prepared and fit for walking another 22 km on a steep climb with such thin air.

Second day of parikrama

Next morning, I woke up fresh and strangely my body felt well prepared. I saw Mohanji near by, so I went to touch his feet and ask for a blessing and smooth journey. He said “Don’t you worry, everything is arranged.” :) These words were enough for me to be sure I will make it walking through the whole 22 km. He cleared all doubts for me. I was led by two thoughts, one of which was to walk slowly, and the other to follow my own pace no matter what.

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Walking with Mohanji in the Himalayas. It was my dream come true.

When I saw the hill I needed to climb, it seamed so overwhelming. Ponies with yatries passed me by. Tibetans from 7 – 77 years old were ascending the hills as if taking a walk in the park. Seeing me how I struggle to walk and grasp for air, they were handing me foods, candies, drinks and herbs. Some even took me by hand and encouraged me to continue walking. I saw them all as extensions of Mohanji. I was been taken care of. The journey was very challenging. It was the most difficult thing I ever did in my life – climbing towards the Dolma La Pass. The air was so thin my legs were moving fueled by Grace only. I arrived at the top and started descending towards the Gauri Kund lake. It was all down hill from there. I still had more than four hours of walk until the next sleep over guesthouse. The road was more or less straight but never the less overwhelmingly energy consuming. Chanting “Om Namah Shivaya” inwardly and thinking of my family and ancestors, and that I walk the parikrama for all of them as well, kept me moving ahead. Arriving at the guesthouse all I wanted was to hug Mohanji’s feet and gratefully melt. And, that’s what I did. :)

Third day felt like walk in the park. Six kilometers of almost all the way straight walking beside Mohanji. It was my dream come true. Mohanji arranged everything so that most of us make it smoothly through the parikrama. It was all his orchestration. He summoned us in the Himalayas so that he can cleanse us from our karmic baggage and bring us home safe and more light. He took a lot of heavy baggage on himself and burned it. One of the visible physical baggage’s he took over was a knee pain. He had to take a pony for the Parikrama cos he took over the knee pain of someone who prayed to him for help with their severe knee problem.

Hanumanji’s sand dunes in Tibet

Hanumanji’s sand dunes in Tibet

It’s been a month ago since we got back from the Kailash trip as I write this. I’ve changed at so many levels. I have left a lot of baggage in the Himalayas. For good, and for ever. How do I know it’s forever? Since, through the years, all the miraculous transformations I’ve been through where Mohanji was the catalyst are permanent. The peaceful power of the snowy Himalayan mountaintops is still here inside my inner space. My boundaries were being pushed, expanded and on so many levels even wiped off.

This journey was the beginning of my lifelong romance with Shiva. Kailash is already calling me once more. With Mohanji’s Grace only…

I humbly offer these experiences at the lotus feet of my Gurudev,

Zoran

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