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True Power Lies in Humility

Mohana Hanumatananda

I’d like to share an experience that had a great impact on my being. It happened two weeks ago after our Power of Purity” group meditation in Skopje, Macedonia. Each time after the meditation we play a song and bask in gratefulness to our Master and the Tradition for the Grace. While the song was playing, I found myself inwardly with my head next to Mohanji’s Feet. I have never felt this way before because of my western mind. My mind did not understand fully what bowing at the feet of a Master truly means. It was only a theoretical, intellectual knowing but not experiential. The feeling was beyond any words, and it was one of homecoming and great protection. Nothing could touch me besides my Master’s feet. They were my soul guardians.

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“Just remember this relationship. Unity.”

 

All the hurt, pain and sorrow I accumulated from the passing period was simply vacuumed by Mohanji’s Feet and simply was eliminated in a split second… The whole event had no duration… it was beyond time and space… It just happened, and I came to know it. I never intended it, it was simply Grace descending upon my poor self …

Next day, when I told Mohanji about the experience, he told me it was not imagination. It was real, and that He merged me into His consciousness. He said, “Just remember this relationship. Unity.”

I knew it was not imagination. Mohanji always says that whenever we meet a Higher Master, how do we know the communion was real? If the meeting made a lasting transformation and a shift, then it was real…. If nothing shifted then it is infatuation.

Now I know for sure where my head’s place is – beside Mohanji’s feet. Nothing can touch me there. And I got a glimpse of highest humility and its effects. At that humble moment of my head (mind) merging into Mohanji’s feet, all my sorrows vanished and I felt truly powerful. It was power coming from my heart center – power that liberates myself and others.

Mohanji said, “I always do my job. All you need is faith and surrender.”

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I Surrender at the Feet of My Guru

By Palak

Kaayena Vaacaa Manasendriyairvaa

Buddhyiatmanaa Vaa Prakrteh Svabhaavaat |

Karomi Yad-Yat-Sakalam Parasmai

Guru-Varaayeti Samarpayaami ||

(Whatever I do) with my Body, Speech, Mind or Sense Organs

(Whatever I do) using my Intellect, Feelings of Heart or (unconsciously) through the natural tendencies of my Mind

Whatever I do, I do all for others (i.e. without the sense of attachment to the results)

(And) I Surrender them all at the Lotus Feet of the Supreme Guru.

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Deepest gratitude from the bottom of my heart to ‘Brahmarishi’ Mohanji, Avadhoota Nadanandaji, Team Mohanji and Team Siddhaganj for allowing me to attend the Title Conferment Ceremony at Kurnool on 10/10/2016.

I could witness and experience a lot of coordination, equal respect, humility, simplicity and divine vibrations. The entire journey was smooth and I thank the entire team for taking care of the minutest details of all the participants. I met so many people from the family and yet I never felt as if I was meeting them for the first time. I am also glad that we could serve lunch to Team Siddhaganj one afternoon as it was one of my wishes – and Mohanji always listens to your heart. A wish emanates in your heart and it gets fulfilled in no time. 

Tears of joy kept rolling down when I was involved in the rhythm and high energy vibrations of Guru Mandala Puja, Arti and spiritual musical which was a therapy to my mind, body and soul. It will always remain etched in my heart. Each and every moment that I experienced was holy, sacred and auspicious and will stand frozen in me. 

I am sharing a few pictures that were captured.

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This picture captured during Guru Mandala Puja done on 09/10/2016 has yellowish and blue color ball on the left side and a little up in the air. It was taken while the lights were off and shows the presence of ‘Celestial Beings’.

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The second picture was taken after the Saptashati done on 10/10/2016, where on the right side, one can see a bright white light on the plate. This was where Mohanji’s father was sitting and doing the Puja. 

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This picture was taken after the Mahaarti was done on 10/10/2016 where one can see the shape of a snake in the lamp’s flame denoting a ‘ Celestial Cobra’.

I pray that by His Grace I will be able to do Service and Sadhana to the best of my abilities at any given time, space and junction.

I once again thank Mohanji for his mercy and for allowing me to connect to His Consciousness –  for He is Pure Consciousness!

Bless All, Peace for All!

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Siddhaganj Ashram- Overwhelmingly Beautiful

Milicia

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As I stepped into Siddhaganj Ashram I instantly felt at home. I felt that I had been there numerous times before.

When we arrived wee were greeted with much respect and warmth. All the events were overwhelmingly beautiful experiences that enriched my being! I had simply come to rejoice for my Guru but I left transformed by motherly divine energy.  I came home feeling empowered and like layers upon layers that were unwanted left my space, making it possible for me to be able to express my true self.

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I had no expectations when I came for the ceremony, never felt that I had anything to gain at all. But now I feel like I have gained new heights.  I also felt that everyone received enormous amounts of blessings by just observing the selflessness of Avadhoota Nadananda and his devotees. They served all of us with such love, devotion, and humbleness. I will cherish this experience forever.

So grateful to Guruji for this blessing! Surrendered at Your lotus feet!  🙏♥️

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HOW TO SURVIVE MANIPULATIONS OF DARK FORCES AND STAY WITH YOUR GURU?

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By Milan Bojic, Editor-in-chief of awakeningtimes.com and novasvest.com

Some nine years ago I started my intensive spiritual journey. As with most people, the initial trigger to start working on myself was the unbearable inner pressure, unstable emotional and physical states, decadent lifestyle, addictions, meaninglessness, fears, financial troubles, etc. It is from the mud and suffering that we reach for salvation; seems like this rule can be applied to most people.

I’m by nature passionate and a bit fanatical – when I discover something that’s meaningful to me, I’m able not to eat nor sleep until I penetrate into the very core of it. Such was also my approach in working on myself. I learned techniques from the field of applied psychology, energy work, various meditations, healing methods, regressions, etc; and I would pursue everything relentlessly. I used to practice what I learned on a daily basis, consistently and committedly, and when I would get the most out of a particular technique, I’d be automatically taken to a new Master and new knowledge.

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Spiritual school is very simple. When you finish one grade, a new Master and a new material come your way; there’s no need for you to ponder over and search for it.

It took me about five years of intensive work to become eligible to attain the presence of an enlightened Master. During those five years, I went through spiritual experiences that completely shattered my concept of reality. I had communications with the souls of the deceased, as well as with the entities of light and darkness, I became aware of the darkness and light and their eternal struggle, I discovered the ability to communicate with invisible beings and beings from other planets, I even started channeling certain information from the Andromeda galaxy, I had several out-of-body experiences (after one such experience I suddenly cut meat out of my diet), I started practicing healing and traveling to holy places, in short- I was a fierce spiritual seeker, and I thought I knew it all.

When I finally reached Mohanji’s holy feet, the illusion of my spiritual status and knowledge was mercilessly destroyed by one and only feeling –the one of unconditional love. Never before had I felt such huge radiation of unconditional love coming from one being, and I was completely disarmed. Everything else is insignificant before the rays of Divine Love.

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It was recognition at a single glance, and my soul was celebrating that all that hard work was finally rewarded with an opportunity to finally start truly working on myself.

I thought that things would be much easier now, and that the worst is behind me. I believed that my Master could be surrounded only by wonderful and advanced souls. I have to admit that I was spellbound and naïve. Little did I know that the real struggle is yet to begin and that all I’d experienced so far was only a kindergarten compared to what was lying ahead of me. In the universe of duality, the law of action and reaction are always at play. However strong our effort and desire for liberation are, there is just as powerful opposite strive in the forces whose goal is to keep us enslaved. If you think the presence of an enlightened Master will save you from it, you’re sadly mistaken. The only salvation can come from God’s grace, but it has to be earned through many tests and break downs, though even reaching the enlightened master itself is a huge expression of God’s mercy.

It has been almost five years now since I first met Mohanji. During this period, I have experienced tremendous transformation. In brief, there’s no longer an identification with the person called Milan.

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However, the reason behind this text is not the description of personal experiences with Mohanji, but something completely different.

As a witness, I was destined to go through several big break downs within the circle of beloved Mohanji’s followers and disciples, and to carry the weight of several projects that were bound to fall on my shoulders. I was a witness to betrayals, rumors, negative campaigns, spreading of lies, and frauds of all kinds in which, more often than not, participated some of Mohanji’s biggest followers and closest disciples. It’s somewhat logical – for it is only our nearest and dearest that can truly hurt us.

“Shaking the tree” is a phenomenon that Mohanji talked about a lot, and it refers to the falling out of disciples and followers who are then leaving their Master. Sometimes it is the Guru himself who “shakes the tree”, and most often this phenomenon takes place as a product of negative forces that are always present in spiritual life. As someone who has “survived” several of these “shakings”, and also propelled by the latest spread of misinformation within the certain circles of Mohanji’s students, I would like to draw your attention with this text to the lurking dangers for every true spiritual seeker, as to the subtle mechanisms that negative forces use in order to seduce the seekers and separate them from the enlightened Masters.

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While seeking for Master, keep both eyes open; once you find him- close one!

I was fortunate to hear this phrase at the very beginning of my spiritual journey. It later saved me from many troubles, because I learned not to judge my Master’s character. This is the biggest trap for all disciples and followers – an ideal image of a perfect Master that’s so dear and tender, so kind and loving. So how can it be that this same Master sits on the toilet seat and has a good dump? Oh, but it can’t be that Shiva is into perfumes and technological gadgets! What kind of a Master is that?

Could it be that the righteous Master shouts at someone who’s innocent, while he spares some sleazebag with his sweet voice? What kind of justice is that? And is it even possible that an enlightened Master says something which later turns out to be incorrect, and that we had to do things differently? And watch out for this – does he sometimes have a beer or a whiskey?

Oh… If you only knew! Character and personality, as well as the physical body of a Master, are only a tool in the eyes of the enlightened consciousness. They serve as a vehicle that fulfills its purpose, with all its virtues and flaws. The fact that someone is enlightened does not necessarily mean that he or she will always be nice and kind. A lot of enlightened people even choose to carry out their mission in a totally weird manner, such as by hitting their disciples with a stick, by yelling at them, etc. Can’t you see the meaning behind it all? They only want to break the chains that bind you!

If you engage yourself too much in thoughts about the personal characteristics of the Master, his physical health, perfumes he’s using, phone he’s carrying, etc., you are risking to be easily affected by some unexpected changes in his lifestyle.

I had the opportunity to meet several enlightened Masters, and each one of them had a completely different character. They are mostly nonsensical people that act on a whim, though there are “normal” characters as well. Jan Esmann, the Master that belongs to Shaktipat tradition, was making a fool out of me for the whole two months, only to ensure that I’m serious enough in my intentions to organize his visit to Serbia. Later he admitted it to me and apologized, adding that some people from America have tried many times to bring him to the USA, but that they would always fail the test when he acts out the “unpleasant cynic”.

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Concepts of money and sex

Does an enlightened Master need sex? If that is the genuine spirituality, how could he be charging for his programs? True spirituality is for free!

Hahahaha! Can’t you see, you naïve man, that with each breath you take in this life you are actually paying off your debt? Can’t you see that every thought and feeling of yours has its price and that karma is the only currency that rules mankind? Money is just another form, in the infinite ocean of forms, which flows past us. Why are you obsessed with it? Who conditioned you to look at everything through money? Money is energy. Money is not dirty.

Do you know where the money the Master gets goes to? Do you know how many hungry people received food, how many needy people got clothes, and how many true, but poor seekers got free participation in programs and pilgrimages from the money that you gave for the retreat? No, you don’t know, because you can’t see the forest for the trees.

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You heard that Mohanji had sex? It can’t be, what kind of a Master is he! Masters should be in celibacy, because they overcame the sexual urge. Hahahah! It’s the same old story – sex scandals. If you want to discredit someone, just start talking about sex. The eyes of the moral purists will shine with happiness! Sex is sex, there’s nothing more to say about it. Sex has its purpose, duration, time, space, etc. Sex is an innate primary instinct of every living being, the fundamental impulse of creation. God is having a constant sexual intercourse with himself. Oh, excuse me! I must be saying a blasphemy! But, can’t you see, even blasphemy is within God. Is there anything in this world that’s not within God? Even the devil himself is in God! Just don’t tell him that, cause he’ll get seriously pissed off.

So, to summarize, as far as I’m concerned my Master could even become a porn star, and it wouldn’t change absolutely anything if his consciousness were enlightened. Who knows, maybe there’s an enlightened soul even among the porn stars. Have you not read the Vedic stories on similar topics? Was it not the prostitute who shifted Vivekananda’s consciousness and brought him to the desired transformation? And what about Krishna? That great lover had over 16 000 wives according to some scriptures. But Krishna is somewhere in the past, so he’s easy to love and we won’t blame him for having an entire harem; however, this Master here is immoral. Now, you listen, false moralists – Sex is beautiful! Relax…

Gossips and rumors

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If you want to be the pig that’s wallowing in its own mire, just go ahead and engage in gossiping and spreading rumors. Yes, it’s so irresistible and appealing. Haven’t you heard what Mohanji’s father-in-law once said while Mohanji was going down the stairs? No way, you haven’t? Here, I’ll tell you…. No, I won’t! Though I do know what his father-in-law said. And I know more such juicy stories from Mohanji’s life that would make your ears burn if you heard them. Yes, a lot of those stories Master told me himself, and I heard many others along the way. And do you know what my reaction was? I would forget them five minutes later, as they were miserable compared to the merging into the ocean of Shiva/Shakti.

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I know a lot of Mohanji’s close disciples who use the gatherings only to spread rumors about his wife, family, this and that. Naturally, many would like to know about his sexual life, if he’s going to have more kids, and so on. That is human nature. Out of desire to be near and dear to him, many people imagine that discovering unknown details from his life will make them closer to him. Don’t make me laugh again! Our Master said even to his own wife that she should marry his consciousness, and not the guru! All the more, he left his own wedding and went to another city to hold a satsang, much to the entire family’s amazement! Can’t you see how insignificant those petty stories are in comparison to the enlightened soul’s mission? But that’s ok, the choice is yours. You can get closer to P.K. Mohan, or to his consciousness. You get what you choose.

Spiritual envy and jealousy

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“There’s no bigger envy than spiritual envy.” I was told this sentence at the very beginning of my spiritual journey by my Master at that time. Pretty soon I discovered what it is about.

Master is so intoxicating and hypnotic, that all the people want him for themselves. At first, the urge is so strong that we push our way through the organization, we want to stand out in everything, we are fighting over who’ll get the shaktipat, and who’ll get the energy transfer, who went to India, and who to Kailash. We get suspicious as soon as the Master takes a longer look at someone or favors somebody. The struggle for parents’ love is merciless; isn’t it so, my brothers and sisters?

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Everyone would like for themselves a piece of Mohanji, his hug, his kind word! I know, I was like that myself. And then I got sick of it all. I could no longer stand the turmoil that arises when dozens of spiritual ego-constructions are fighting over a bit of love. I decided to quit such behavior and to just meditate in Master’s consciousness. I wanted to be with him always, in his consciousness, unbound and free from his physical personality. And what do you know! The one who needs nothing, receives everything. An intimate relationship started developing between us, the form of trust that can’t be described. My house became his house, my family was his family, my child was his child. Always at the right moment, his call or message would arrive, or he would pay me a personal visit. And do you know why? Let me tell you a secret – Mohanji’s body is only a slave of Mohanji’s consciousness! Embrace the consciousness of Mohanji, and then his physical arms will come of themselves to caress you.

Visions and Mind Projections

We come to one of the most manipulative delicacies used by the dark forces. Believe me, I paid for schools and schools until I didn’t learn this lesson. For years I was obsessed with astral experiences, channeling, communicating with various beings, with my higher self, archangels etc. I went through unbelievable experiences and met many psychics. But, how do you know which vision is real, and which is just a mind projection?

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When I asked Mohanji about it, his answer was crystal clear: “When a higher being really comes to us, after that encounter we are not the same. Otherwise, it was just a projection.”

Oh, what an unpleasant information for my ego then. When I thought about it and applied this rule to my visions and experiences, I realized that only about 30% of my experiences were really authentic, because after those I experienced huge changes, while 70% belonged to projections of my ego personality.

Later on, as the seekers subtlety raises, visions can be very powerful and remarkable, but at the same time they can represent manipulation of the dark forces. A person who relies only on their vision can be manipulated very easily. I had decided to discard all visions and dive into their source – pure light. Only then did I feel crystal clarity of existence. When man is in unity with all existence, when his identifications disappear and he dives into the ocean, then existence communicates with your soul in different ways, not only through visions.

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Maybe the best example is the story about great Ramakrishna who had visions of goddess Kali during which he would fall into hours of ecstasy. Cutting the story short, Ramakrishna couldn’t achieve enlightenment until he didn’t slay goddess Kali with a sword in front of his mental screen.

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It also happens that a person achieves certain spiritual heights. Maybe thanks to your disciplined practice you have awakened healing abilities and now you are a great and famous healer. Maybe you have acquired the power to see previous lives of other people and now you take them into regression. Maybe you received the gift of Shaktipat from your Master, maybe you’re in charge of meditations, you deliver energy transfers, you lead whole teams in the organization etc. You think you’re important and many things depend on you? Hahahahahaha!

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You have forgotten the basic spiritual lessons – humility and surrender. Everything is given to you because you have deserved it with your karma, and everything can be taken away from you if you gamble your chance. Don’t think you’re untouchable to the dark forces, on the contrary – you have become a high-demand commodity in their eyes. The higher you are in the organization, the more interesting you are to them, the closer you are to the Master, the more the dark forces will try to separate you from him. That makes sense too, right? No matter all the protection you enjoy as a sincere devotee and no matter your untouchability by the dark forces because all of Guru Mandala is taking care – don’t think you can relax.

Even a mindless step or conceit, even the tiniest weakness and impurity can become the reason for your fall. And the Master will let you fall if you choose to, he cannot take a decision instead of you.

Yet, there’s no reason to fear, all that’s asked from you is true surrender and commitment.

Always have in mind that darkness gets you where you’re weakest – they will set you up with thoughts that mud the Masters image and subtly separate you from him, they will feed your spiritual ego and make you think what a great healer or savior you are, who even needs to save his own Master. What a majestic illusion – a trapped soul saving an already liberated soul!

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They will set you up with a vision where Babaji himself appears and says that Mohanji is seduced and in danger, and those who do not see are blind and stupid. Of course, only you know that and only you can save him! And yes, believe me, I heard this story about Babaji’s message a few day ago, and that’s the reason why I’m writing this text.
On the day of Orthodox Christmas, January 7th, during one written communication I received terrifying information regarding Mohanji, the organization, disciples etc. I was shocked with the level of craziness in all this, especially since this information was coming from a very important person.

Since I always want to come to the source and essence of everything, I wrote to my Master immediately. He laughed and dismissed all possible points and said that we need to put a foot down to this negativity.

“Until now, the positive had been passively encountering the negative. That must change”, these were Mohanji’s words. Soon after that a public message floated through all social media about the Master’s condition, stopping rumors about his heart-attack etc.

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I personally wrote directly to the person standing behind all this nonsense and poured everything into her face. Of course, the reaction was blazing and raging, I was insulted in the most horrible way. But you know what? I didn’t feel a bit of it. At the exact same moment I received the e-mail with insults, I received a e-mail from Mohanji too. In my inbox, one next to the other were two e-mails: one filled with insults, and the other filled with love. A part of Mohanji’s e-mail said:

Milan,

Sage Agasthya told Devi Amma of Bangalore: “Inform Mohanji that he is our son. Mohanji and all his people are our responsibility. We look after them. We protect them. Nobody and nothing can touch them.”

I felt these words were taking things to an end.

This text will sound rough to many, but that is the purpose. True spirituality is not for the weak, the naïve, the lazy and the soft, the pompous nobles and the fakes. You will get slayed in this game, the sooner you realize this the better you will be prepared for all the challenges awaiting you.

If you have the guts to get to the finish line – take a deep breath, close your eyes and disappear!

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Translation from Serbian: Maja Otovic and Barbara Dizdarevic.

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Vana Satsang with Guruji – Clearing the Clutter of minds

The cellphone starts ringing at 3:45am and I am all awake because it is a call from Avadhoota Nadanandaji (respectfully and affectionately addressed as Guruji by Mohanji). When He calls, you are wide awake. A gentle but firm voice (like a General informing his troops) instructs me that we have to get ready and assemble before 5:00am. Then with the affection and caring of a mother, tells me to ensure that we have our coffee and something to eat before we leave.

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The usual not so brief background: Guruji had informed Mohanji that He could not join us for the retreat in Shirdi as originally planned due to ill health. Hence, soon after Mohanji came back from Europe, He decided to spend some time with Guruji in Kurnool before the retreat. We started from Gurgaon in our ashram car literally traveling thousands of kilometers to reach Kurnool. Our hearts that were afire with the anticipation of basking in the divine motherly love of our beloved Guruji, and experiencing the cool breeze of indescribable love at His sight and presence.

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Mohanji always says, “Each time we meet Guruji, it is difficult to say goodbye to Him when it is time to part.” This is absolutely true. His palpable love not only makes us feel at home, but establishes us in the feeling of “homecoming”, making us wonder if we have already found the destination. Home is where our heart loves to be. And Guruji fills our heart with gentle love. As Mohanji says “He gives us all that we can take. In some cases, He even builds the capacity to take more and then gives more.”

The unfathomable love of an Avadhoota is difficult to explain. Mohanji gave me much clarity on the mode of operation of Guruji and Masters of his stature so that I could feel, (rather than see) the unconditional love and beauty of a mind-less being walking like a baby in the illusory jungle of local insensitivity. Every true master has the mindset of an innocent child. In His or Her eagerness to serve the “unconscious” minds of the world, they burn themselves out. They give all they can, even (often) to undeserving hands. They keep giving unconditionally, and effortlessly walk away to their world of non-dual existence, without complaints or regrets. A true Guru is a sight to behold indeed!

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As soon as Mohanji saw Guruji, he prostrated at His lotus feet and Guruji blessed him. It was late afternoon and as always, the motherly affection of Guruji saw us being dispatched to have “food first” to ensure that our physical hunger was appeased after the long trip. Ramesh Garu escorted us to our rooms and then to lunch, while ensuring that our baggage reached our rooms. The food, needless to say, was sumptuous with mouth-watering varieties served with dollops of affection and love. After the mandatory and gluttonous overeating of delicious food, we met Guruji again, basked in his energy, listened to his words of love and rested for some time. This was more or less the nature of our days with Guruji during this trip which began on the 18th and lasted until the 24th,  after which Mohanji and I left Guruji at Bangalore and travelled to Shirdi (via Pune) on 25th to attend the marriage of the son of Sulakhe Maharaj, the chief priest of Sai Baba temple in Shirdi, on 26th evening. This whole trip was like a fairy tale.

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Guruji told us that 20th was the day He had set for awakening his people with a day-long program in a quiet and beautiful place near the river in Kurnool in close proximity to the forests which was 3kms away from his ashram, Siddhaganj. It was titled “Vana Satsang” (a discourse in the forests) and would have talks by Mohanji, Guruji, etc with aarati, bhajans (devotional singing), chanting, etc. Guruji was meticulously planning it for some time and was expecting 150-200 people for this event. People from different parts of India – Jammu, Bengaluru, Dhar, Hyderabad, Kurnool, etc – were to attend this event.

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In spite of his failing health, Guruji was involved, as usual, in planning and executing this to the last detail – the program schedule, the speakers and their topics, the venue setup, the food arrangements, the route map and transportation (down to the number of cars and people in each car), the musical instruments and audio equipment, the volunteer detail, ensuring continuity of service activities in Kurnool, etc. Within the blink of an eye, it became 20

Within the blink of an eye, it became 20th – the day of the program. It is also time for us to return to our main story. 🙂

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Continuing from where we left off: As we scrambled to get ready, Guruji had taken up His position by the tree in front the gates of Siddhaganj ashram. That was His vantage point to monitor and direct the proceedings – in this case shepherding and herding the flock into the cars and to the location. As we got closer to the estimated time of departure, the decibels and Guruji’s booming voice and the frequency of His exhortations to the flock to get moving started getting higher. 🙂 Guruji is very strict on punctuality and does not allow any deviation. His programs have to start on time – there is no other option. Guruji, as always pushed us to get going before time. He is always prompt and seemingly impatient. I quickly gathered that his seeming impatience is his medicine to cure our native laziness. If accepted, or left unattended, our laziness grows without us being aware. Gurus throw fire on us and make us run. Some scold, some push, some shout, but everyone burns tamas unceremoniously. So as we got closer to the due time, a steady stream of people came to “check” on us requesting us to get ready soon as it was time to leave.

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We were all literally rushed into the cars and took the short drive to reach the location. We quickly reached the location, got out of the car and entered the gates. We walked passed the open space surrounded by trees and soon reached a cobbled walkway that led to the program area. On the left side was the garden with an idol of Lord Krishna in the center. A tall lamp had been placed next to the idol along with incense, oil, smudge sticks, etc. On the right side, the program area was set up on the open ground with carpets on the ground and chairs along the periphery (for those unable to sit on the floor). There were two chairs placed in the front for Guruji and Mohanji. The walkway led to a makeshift dining area where tea and coffee were being served. Beyond the waiting area was the only accommodation on the site. The open space of the porch was being used for cooking and one room was made available for the Masters to rest.

We had reached a bit earlier than Guruji. Hence, we ambled around surveying the surroundings and sipping on some nice milky tea. Since it was early in the morning (before 5:30am), it was still a little dark. Soon, Guruji’s car reached the location. Guruji stepped out wearing a saffron dhoti (waistcloth covering the legs) and a saffron cloth tied around his head, like Sai Baba. As soon as he entered the gates, the people filed along on both sides of the walkway and bowed to Him. As He entered inside, Guruji had a very serious expression and was walking in a very determined fashion like He was on a mission. He looked very clear on the immense transformation He had planned for us throughout the day ahead. He glanced at the people that had assembled like a General surveying his troops. The way Guruji walked in, with confidence and grandeur, a rank outsider would have found it hard to believe if we told him that he is suffering from 5th stage cancer. His internal freedom was displaying itself in His outward expressions.

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As He walked past us, His expression softened and He winked at Mohanji with a soft smile. He loves Mohanji like a son rather than a brother and He never hides his feelings. Mohanji also loves the fatherly affection and lets Himself go in Guruji’s presence. Even though Guruji insists that His relationship with Mohanji is brotherly, everyone around feels a father-son relationship, especially after Mohanji inherited the powers of Guruji. There is an invisible oneness between Them. And Their love for each other is a sight to see.

Mohanji constantly thinks about Guruji and does His best to ensure Guruji is well taken care of. The same intensity of love and concern towards Mohanji is always visible in Guruji’s eyes and words as well. He ensures, both physically and metaphysically, that Mohanji is well looked after and does not leave any options unturned for that. He wants Mohanji to be happy always and wants Mohanji to be not only comfortable but also well provided for. The events that took place since Their first meeting in December 2015 gave me clarity that Gyanganj was the real wire puller behind this “celestial” meeting and transfer. Every thought, word and action that transpired between Them seemed purposeful and aimed at the larger good of the world. They are two selfless people and Their union has to be for the good of the world. This is how the Heavens work.

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Back to the story again. Vana Satsang started with lighting the lamp. Guruji walked towards the lamp and asked for Mohanji to join Him. He asked Mohanji to light the lamp to inaugurate the function as He chanted Om Jatavedase Sunavama from the Sri Durga Suktam in His beautiful divine voice. Some from the group joined in the chorus. Guruji asked Mohanji to light the lamp even though Mohanji’s presence on 20th was not exactly pre-planned. Mohanji lit the lamp and thus the program was inaugurated. Guruji stood by Mohanji, as a loving father, making sure His son did it right. We all felt that this “hand-holding” of Mohanji by masters of Gyanganj through Avadhoota Nadananda will ensure that a lot of good things are seamlessly delivered to the world through Mohanji in the future. This “lighting the lamp” ceremony was perhaps the beginning of something rich and celestial or beginning of a new world of light and harmony, led by the energy of Mohanji – a new beginning if the Brahmarishi title ceremony on October 10th can be considered a coronation.

After the lamp was lit, Guruji requested everyone to have tea and biscuits and then get seated. He walked around and enquired on how everyone was doing, cracking jokes and lightening the mood displaying His usual casual self. Soon it was time for the program to start and Guruji had everyone seated quickly. He asked Mohanji to sit next to Him and beckoned the whole group to sit closer to Him. The morning aarati that is done in the Siddhaganj ashram at 6:30am had to be done at this location since the entire Siddhaganj team was in attendance here.

Since there was still some time for the aarati to start, Guruji decided to start the program with a bhajan (devotional song). The accompanying musicians were Swami Ajayananda on tabla, Anand Kumar on the dholak, Mohanji on cymbals 🙂 and the rest of the group providing the chorus. Guruji sang a medley of bhajans that were an ode to the Guru principle. He varied the tempo and teased the audience into participation that got them out of their morning stupor. Guruji, with His forceful yet playful energy, very soon had all the people singing in unison. At one point during the singing, Guruji explained the Krishna avatar. He said that Lord Krishna is none other than Bhagawathi (The Divine Mother) herself who once desired to take a male body and manifested herself as Krishna. Where Bhagawathi is, there is Bhagavan. After He had sufficiently pumped up the group with a lot of energy, Guruji kickstarted the program by asking the group to perform the morning aarati.

The group from Siddhaganj, Kurnool led the recitation of the aarati which involved several bhajans (devotional songs) for the Guru, shlokas like the Dattatreya Kavacham, and mantra chanting. The other people who were conversant with the aarati chanted in unison. The rest of us meditated in the atmosphere sanctified by the presence of the Masters and the beautiful recitations. It was a truly surreal experience.

Guruji then led the group through a rousing bhajan on the different excuses that householders have that prevents them from entering the path of unconditional love. He poked fun at His disciples which, though playful in nature, unequivocally brought out the pitfalls, the attachments, etc., in the way of the householder.

Mohanji spoke about Grihasta Dharma – the spiritual path of the householder. He related the topic from the depth of His own experiences. Mohanji explained that we play various roles as we live our life daily each of which is relevant to our existence in a particular context. Mohanji mentioned that if there is clear purpose for existence then the relationship is a burden. He recounted an anecdote of Lahiri Mahasaya wherein His wife ‘momentarily’ forgot His stature and purpose due to familiarity. Mohanji mentioned about doing seva to pay their debts to Mother Earth else they have to take another life to pay off the death.He also mentioned that celibacy or marriage are equally acceptable alternatives based on the orientation of the individual. Guruji concluded the session with a beautiful bhajan on the fickleness of human attachments and relationships and the need to anchor oneself only with the Guru and the Divine. Like all the bhajans that would happen through the day, it was a mix of singing, satsang (spiritual discourse) and chanting.

Guruji complemented Mohanji’s talk by highlighting the need for taking care of parents in their old age. He mentioned that Grihastha Dharma includes not just taking care of one’s spouse and children, it also includes our dependent parents as well. He recounted a story from His past when He would go to an old age home to spread love and cheer. One day, He noticed an old couple waiting in the morning and looking at the gates of the old age home. When Guruji enquired, the lady said that it was her grandson’s birthday and she was waiting for her son to get him along so she could see the grandson and celebrate his birthday. Later in the day in the evening, he noticed that the lady was still waiting with hope. She was convinced that her son would come with her grandson. This was too much for the kind and compassionate heart of Guruji. He went out and bought a cake and went to the lady. He told her, “I am sorry but your son and grandson are not coming. Would you please consider me your grandson for a few moments and celebrate the birthday?” She did celebrate her grandson’s birthday with Guruji. When Guruji related this incident, he was moved to tears. He said that leaving one’s parents all alone in an old age home is one of the greatest sins a person can commit.

All the chanting and singing had made us very hungry. We were treated to a yummy breakfast. This was followed by a session on Kaivalya Upanishad by Sri Venkata Subbaiahgaru. This was in Telegu so I did not understand the content much. One fact he shared shed some light on the operating level of an Avadhoota. Guruji usually avoids entering the sanctum sanctorum of a temple. Venkata Subbaiahgaru told him that the deity of the temple gets up from their seat to welcome an Avadhoota. Hence, Guruji avoids entering the sanctum sanctorum of a temple out of respect and to avoid inconveniencing the resident deity.

Also, He revealed that various deities come to worship an Avadhoota before Brahma Muhurta. During our first trip to Dhar, Guruji had told us that he had to set aside time early in the morning for this purpose. During this time, He is usually sequestered in His room. Close disciples attending to Guruji will see flowers on the path used by the deities to Guruji’s room. I also recall reading that the hot water spring tank in Ganeshpuri was reserved for use of Bhagavan Nithyananda an hour before it was open to the public. One of Baba’s close disciples, an old lady, ventured in by mistake and was overawed seeing Bhagavan in the water with various deities and divine beings levitating in the air around Him and worshipping Him. She fell unconscious on seeing this divine sight. Bhagavan scolded her for entering in since the high energy as it could have been detrimental to her life.

Guruji then asked the group to mentally chant the mantra given by their Guru (or Hreem if they did not have one) for 30min. The energetic environment and the shift in frequencies that Guruji had created was palpable. Our spines were literally buzzing with energy. It was an amazing experience to just chant and let go. When the chanting period was over, the group from Kurnool chanted the Siddha Kunjika Stotram from the Durga Saptashati. This elevated the experience to an entirely different level. We just had to close our eyes and float on the words of the chants.

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Guruji followed this session with a sweet bhajan satsang outlining a Guru’s often thankless job of carrying the burden of His disciples and relieving them of their pain. He mentioned the anecdote of a disciple who walks on the beach doing his sadhana and sees four footsteps behind him signifying the presence of his Guru. However, one day when severe troubles beset him, he noticed that there were only one set of footsteps. Thinking that his Guru had also abandoned him, he wailed in despair calling to his Guru to explain the reason. The Guru then explains that he is carrying the disciple on his shoulder and that the single set of footprints are those of the Guru (and not of the disciple). Guruji mentioned that he was carrying everyone’s load on his shoulders. At times, the load became unbearable but He would not give up and do whatever it took without expecting anything in return. For this is the purpose of a Guru – to take people to liberation without giving any thought to their own comforts.

After this wonderful satsang, it was time for lunch. The food, as usual,  was exceedingly delicious. It was hard to resist the urge to overeat bearing in mind the need to stay awake for the afternoon session. We were to assemble at 2pm and people had about an hour to rest. We found out that Guruji has fallen in the garden – probably due to the karmic stock that He was burning through his body. He decided to rest a bit longer. Mohanji also chose to rest a while.

When we reassembled, it was Guruji’s show from that point on. He continued with his delightful bhajan satsangs that had everyone lapping every word. Guruji also mentioned that he had not had any food since morning. He said that a mother feeds her children first and then has food. There was one person amongst the crowd who hadn’t taken food for some reason. Guruji said that He would also not have food until that person had food. (Guruji did not have any food till evening until after that person ate food).

He told us a story of Lord Siva to explain this incident. Mother Parvathi (Lord Shiva’s consort) requests Lord Shiva to have some food. Lord Siva tells her that unless every being of Kailash is not fed, he cannot have food. Mother Parvathi insists that everyone has eaten. Lord Siva asks her to get the bowl of sugar and she spots an ant trying hard to hold onto a grain of sugar. Only after Lord Shiva sees the ant having the sugar, he accepts food. The next session was the Q&A section with Guruji and Mohanji firing away answers to a long list of questions. After this, there were several bhajans from Guruji. The Vana Satsang concluded soon after sunset with a dance from our beloved Guruji.

We were served a delicious dinner. Guruji was practically fasting more or less the whole of that day and ate with the volunteers and the cleaners after most people had left. The way Guruji honours the serving people is a sight to watch. He has deep respect and love for the poor and needy. He is always considered of their well-being more than his own.

I cannot even begin to explain what all happened in that space on that day. About 150 people sang, danced and dipped themselves in divine awareness in the presence of Guruji and Mohanji. Guruji insisted on Mohanji sitting next to him. It was kind of a handing over. As Mohanji later said, “It was remarkable to see how Guruji is cleaning up the karmic junk of people through his invisible and unorthodox way of singing and dancing. Everybody returned home as better individuals, much lighter and quieter.”

My level of subtlety did not allow me to see much deeper stuff that happened beyond eyes can perceive. Yet, I could see a transformation and spontaneous gratitude in the eyes of people. It was interesting to see how Guruji made a positive difference in the inner world of people within one sunrise and sunset. Lots to learn for everyone! He sits like the typical authoritative head of a family, shouts at people, birds and animals. He chases away people’s inertia. He is sensitive, yet matter-of-fact. No nonsense anywhere, anytime. No time to waste. Work is worship.

What changes happened within, I do not know. But, I know that positive changes do happen in the presence of true Masters. It does. It did. Mohanji and Avadhoota Nadananda are one. There was no visible separation between them, as each was concerned about the well-being of the other. There is no separation between them in spirit and energy too. Guruji told Mohanji as soon as we came in “Be prepared to go to Gyanganj.” Mohanji is travelling fast in his path. We all are travelling with him. Gyanganj through Guruji has gifted to the world a substantial inheritor, as Gyanganj did many times earlier.

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Guruji never spared any opportunity to kick egos and hypocrisy of people. He did that spontaneously. At the same time, when it is time to love, it has the same or more intensity. No emotion is stable. In the case of a true Master, you can see the changing moods, purely based on purpose much more distinctly, as they are empty vessels unbound by human space, time or emotions. They display only to teach. Each Master has his own unique style which makes them distinct and inimitable. Mohanji’s approach is totally different from that of Guruji, perhaps because he is working with people abroad more than India. His way is more subtle and quiet, yet effective which we know by the increasing number of people trying to reach him every single day.

The show has just begun. The show will continue. The show can never stop. Those who have eyes to see will see. Those who have hearts will perceive. Those who understand the value will never leave this celestial satsang that flows unhindered through various mouths, aimed at clearing the forest of dark ignorance and ego. Masters are gifts of God. Not understanding a Master is our handicap. Only surrender will help in such times. Mohanji always says “Those who have eyes to see will see. The rest have chosen blindness. Let them be. Bless them so that in some life, they will remove their veil of ego and start seeing the truth. We have no agenda. Like the eternal sun, we provide light to see and heat to burn inertia. Those who choose to use it will be benefitted. Those who ignore it will have to come back and use it someday because nobody can enjoy darkness for long. Sooner or later, everybody will crave for the light of truth.”

The Vana Satsang in Mohanji’s words

The Vana Satsang that happened on 20th November with Avadhoota Nandananda at Kurnool was actually a great event. I do not think we can even begin to understand the depth of the activity that happened, the depth of the cleansing that happened. Also, I don’t think that we can fathom the size of the activity in terms of the cleansing or elevation of awareness that happened. Guruji was in a different mood. He was unwell in the night and was vomiting blood. However, in the morning, He was chanting and dancing like nothing happened. He was trying to give everybody something or the other. I do not think anybody has gone home empty handed. They have all got something. From what I could see, Guruji was cleansing a lot of people at different levels, layers, etc.

Since I was also getting into a kind of trance state, I was trying to sit at a distance and watch the show. I did not want to have to bother about the function or effect Guruji’s flow. So I tried to sit slightly away but Guruji insisted that I should sit next to Him. So I sat next to Him. I also had a functional role there since I had to talk about Grihastha Ashram. But I was in a different mood that day. Guruji asked Me to light the lamp to inaugurate the function. Right from the time I lit the lamp in the morning, I was in a different state from then onwards. I was sitting next to Guruji but it was not helping me. In fact, sitting next to Guruji was triggering my expansion whenever Guruji was going into expansion. So, in a way, I am 100% sure Guruji understood that I may go into trance, because this is like two fires merging or like a fire igniting some dried wood, it catches fire very fast. So now and then when the program was on, he was either tapping me on my knee or He was holding my hand. Those were the times when I was actually on the verge of moving further or going into trance. So, He kept me grounded more or less and He asked me to speak, and speaking was very difficult because I was getting internalized. But then, I tried to crack jokes to make the situation as light as possible. Also, the excellent food helped a bit in grounding. Sujatagaru told me to lie down a little bit which I did. Even though it was 15 or 20 minutes, it was quite a substantial help.

Layer by layer, changes were happening in me after the transfer of powers to me by Guruji on October 10th. So this event helped to solidify that process or to make it more clear and concrete.  I asked Him later and He confirmed. One other thing Guruji had said was that it will take time for cleansing due to the Sanskaras of the past. So it is going away slowly, it is getting washed away, but it will take time. Often, when we come in contact with a Master of the stature of Guruji, we cannot even begin to understand the level from which He operates. He plays it very cool and He is always humble by nature. So we begin to feel, “Oh, He is just an ordinary man.” But that is not the truth. He is very, very, very high, and we cannot even begin to understand how high or how deep.

He told me that I am taken care of, before the transfer and even after the transfer and it will all be fine and well guided. So there is nothing to worry about. He said that it is important to know that it is one family. Everybody is together, all people are together and once you are in the family and especially when Gyanganj takes over, there is nothing more to worry. They have taken over. So it is just a question of time before things will be revealed. I think Guruji played a major role in grounding me when the function was happening. I think the function was just an opportunity to be together with Him in close proximity. Even though the function was happening on one side, there was something else happening within me. I was getting cleansed, or I was getting grounded or whatever you want to call it. There was something going on inside and Guruji said, “Don’t analyze, just don’t analyze, just be.” So I don’t analyze it, but the bottom line is that something has happened for sure.

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So further to the October 10th transfer, 20th of November was the second stage. This is what I felt. Of course, the function went well and Guruji did huge cleansing for many people, which all of them will experience in the days to come. I also saw how much work He is doing for the sake of people, those who were present there and also those who were not present there. There is so much happening, so much that He is doing. It is unbelievably great. There are no words to explain, and all that remains is extreme gratitude to Gyanganj as well as to Guruji and to all the Masters who are orchestrating this. Just gratitude. I do not exist. Only the tradition exists.

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The Kailash Within

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by Deloshni Govender

When I started following Mohanji in 2013, I never knew the Grace which was in store for me. Someone should have turned on the sign so that I could fasten my seatbelt! At the outset, it seemed like a run of the mill encounter with a Master whom I chose to follow. Ego allowed me the luxury of thinking that I did the choosing.

Since meeting and following Babaji (Mohanji), I had an intense urge to accompany him on his yatra (pilgrimage) to Kailash. Grace kept me unaware of the trip in 2014. When we had a Skype call with him in early 2015, I voiced my desire. He said nothing more than to find the Kailash within. My mind said that I will still go later in the year as there will probably be a yatra. The year saw devastating earthquakes and I realised then what the Master meant. He knew at the beginning of the year that the yatra will not happen. Being a new bhakta (follower), I was mildly impressed as I had never been exposed to any of his leelas (divine plays) at this stage.

When the yatra for 2016 was announced, my heart did a lurch. Here was my opportunity! I will go to Kailash! As the application deadline approached, I realised with a sinking heart that this yatra too may not happen for me. I was not prepared to go into debt to make this yatra a possibility. I must also add that I have a tendency to put my dreams last. Every possibility that presented itself was shot down as fast as it appeared. I finally resigned myself to not even applying as I knew that the costs will exceed my budget. But I knew in my heart that if Babaji said the words “Come to Kailash!”, I would do anything possible to go.

In May 2016, we were ecstatic to have Babaji with us in SA. At a private breakfast, the topic of Kailash was brought up. Babaji asked me if I am going to Kailash and I responded in the negative. He asked me if I had read the book “Kailash with Mohanji” and I replied that I had not. His response was a firm “You should”. With that he changed the topic. I was gutted. Baba didn’t say that I should come and even worse he asked me to read a book which would just increase my desire to be with him at Kailash. I always follow Baba’s instructions but this was one instruction my heart could not bear to follow.

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In July, Warren shared a post on the family group chat. I read it in tears but the dam really broke down when I saw that the excerpt was from the book “Kailash with Mohanji”. This created a strong need to buy the book online and begin reading. Just reading the introduction I understood why Babaji wanted me to read this book! It spoke of people who also travelled with Babaji to Kailash in spirit.

I began savouring the book page by page and realised, more and more, how Babaji carries his bhaktas with him in spirit to Kailash. The only problem was how I could become an eligible bhakta. How could I ensure that I was one of those destined to travel with Baba in spirit? How would this insignificant speck of dust ever dare to request such grace? My mind made sure that I knew that I may not be one of the eligible ones. I was, after all, not that special and I have done nothing special to warrant such grace.

I started having weird flu-like symptoms and intense bouts of fever, where I would have to just leave work and go home. I went to the doctor who said I had absolutely normal medical stats. Besides a mild post nasal drip, she could find nothing which would bring on fevers and utter fatigue. I slept for more than 13 hours at a time which is incredibly unusual for me. I messaged Swami Mohana Bhaktananda Bharati who comforted me and jovially said that he loves it when medical science is baffled. My journey to Kailash had unknowingly begun!

We began planning for Swami’s visit to Johannesburg and I was so unwell that I planned on attending the first day programme for an hour and then just going home to rest. During the introduction, Swami played a bhajan for us to dance to. My heart chakra heated up and this warmth expanded to my entire body. I immediately began feeling better and stayed the rest of the programme.

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Healing Meditation at Hare Krishna temple, Midrand

The second day began with a Havan for all Kailash yatris and I chose to attend. During the Havan, I saw Swami’s eyes change in expression many times as each deity was invoked. I was in utter bliss participating in the havan. We all had some of the fruit that was offered to Babaji. I had a little but could not eat more than a piece or two.

Lunch was served. For some inexplicable, petty reason, I became upset and refused to take a meal. I could not bear to be around people so I took a walk to my car and just sat there chanting Baba’s mantra for a while to calm this unshakeable irritation. Thus began my detachment from the world and my fast for Kailash. I would not have been able to travel with a heavy meal. I went back in and took my seat for the Satsang with Swami and I saw Swami give me an intense look from metres away in the dining room where he was eating. I was embarrassed as I felt that maybe he had picked up on my irritation.

I enjoyed the Satsang and the bhajans which followed. I went deep into each song and it felt like I was being carried somewhere far as each deity was invoked even without my  willing it. Swami started giving Shaktipat to everyone and I was semi aware as each one went up to him. I was lost in the bhajans. The bhajans were indeed creating a very charged atmosphere. We started singing “Om Namah Shivaya” and the chant spontaneously somehow changed to “Om Parabrahma, Om Parabrahma, Om Parabrahma, Jai Mohanji!” I started feeling Babaji’s presence very strongly but this is normal at most of our meditations and bhajans.

Finally Ajay beckoned for me to receive Shaktipat and I felt myself get up and walk to Swami. He tied a sacred thread on my hand which he had brought from Vaishnodevi temple and began giving me Shaktipat. I remember still singing “Om Parabrahma, Om Parabrahma, Om Parabrahma, Jai Mohanji!” and this went on in my head. I felt a Devi energy rise within me almost like I was going to go into a trance. I became scared and opened my eyes. I looked straight into Swami’s intense eyes and he asked me to just relax. I felt protected and taken care of so I closed my eyes again and I felt myself grow and become SO strong. I felt like my leg was rising for a giant step and that I was turning within the vastness of the Universe. It was such an incredible feeling. I was powerful, protected, loved and in bliss. I later found out from Ami that I had indeed raised my leg physically and that I had indeed done a physical turn in Swami’s arms.

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The Mohanji Family lost in bhajans to the divine

I sat down to enjoy the bhajans again and could not stop floating, it was like this intense energy kept rising within me. I staggered back to Swami and asked him to help. He put his hand on my heart chakra and I felt myself melt into nothingness and then come back into my body. I later found out that I did physically fall to the ground as well.

After this experience I felt light and in such intense bliss. Love just overflowed and this went on during Aarati and even after I went home. I could not take a proper meal until the next day. I could not sleep. I called Yugen the next day to enquire if they had reached Durban safely and he put the call on speaker so that I could speak to Swami. Swami indicated that my yearning was so great to do the parikrama (circumambulation) of Kailash that I had indeed walked around Kailash in that one turn.

Three days later during Kriya, I saw everything with crystal clear clarity. The inexplicable fevers and fatigue. Sleeping too much like my body was taking a huge strain. The reason I got upset and did not eat was in order to fast for what was coming. The turn in Swami’s arms and subsequent parikrama of Kailash. The moment when Swami touched my heart chakra and gave me shanti (peace) causing me to fall, was me indeed surrendering at the feet of Namashivaya. I became the petals at Babaji’s feet! Minutes after Kriya came the text from Swami saying that my experience should be shared. That Mohanji fulfilled my desire out of his mercy and grace. That Mohanji IS Kailash and that Mansarovar is His grace.

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In safe arms

How do I know this to be true and not a figment of my always overactive imagination? Babaji says that it is how the experience changes you that allows you to know that it was real. I feel lighter and in perpetual bliss. I had three days of intense release. I would just cry continuously when I think of my love for Babaji and Swamiji. I had various emotions surface with intensity and then get released like I was burning Karma at a rapid rate. But most important, was the love that continuously flowed within me and outside of me. I just had explosions of love each time I thought of my Mohanji family. I was beaming huge smiles at strangers. I was in permanent gratitude for this existence. I felt like it was Diwali inside of me with fireworks and celebrations happening on an internal level.

Why do I write this? I want every single bhakta to know that no matter how insignificant YOU think you are, you are the world to Mohanji. I want you to know that if Mohanji can take this worthless piece of dust, make it shine and take it on a yatra of Kailash, he will do the same and more for you. I want you to know that Mohanji knows your heart’s desires before you are even consciously aware of them and that he makes it his duty to fulfil each of your wishes. I want you to know that I am NOTHING special, I have done no special sadhanas except that which Mohanji asks us all to do. I am the same as each of you and grace still flowed into my life. I have done nothing to earn this grace but such is the love of Mohanji that it flowed regardless into my life. I have been on my knees crying in gratitude for this grace and it’s my singular mission to make you believe that each of you are being carried in spirit on this yatra to Kailash as well. Just have eyes to see and a heart to receive, He will do the rest. Reach into the depths of your being and truly find the Kailash within.

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The Kailash within….my Kailash and I are one: Photo credit Mitesh Khatiwala

Shared with the utmost love and gratitude at the lotus feet of my beloved Baba Mohanji. I cannot ever thank you in these earthly ways, I can only let my heart try to explain. My beloved Swami MBB, I feel the same about You. You have put so much into this being that words fail me. My darling spiritual sister Milica, your blessings brought me to Baba’s feet. I love the three of you so much I can only cry when I think of the extent!

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Faith & Surrender

By Viji Sagar

I always believed that I understood what faith and surrender meant and that I practiced it consistently. Until…

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It was a beautiful Sunday afternoon, bright sunshine with a touch of coolness and a gentle breeze. A perfect day to celebrate Onam with family and friends. After a scrumptious but heavy meal, I felt a slight nagging headache set in. I chalked it up to over eating and took a long nap, only to wake up with an amplified headache, a tingling sensation and a little heaviness on the whole left side of my body. As the evening progressed, the discomfort increased. I could feel heaviness in my tongue and my left hand and legs felt like pillars. It started to seem like symptoms of a full on stroke.

Since my husband was traveling, I was alone at home.

It was late at night and I did not want to wake up anyone. As I was contemplating my next move, I caught a glimpse of Mohanji’s picture. Wondering why I didn’t think of Him earlier, I connected to him immediately, prayed that I am surrendering this situation to him and whatever HE decides I accept, with the belief that he would give me the strength to handle whatever the outcome may be.

This, my friends, was a turning point for me. I usually pray to Mohanji and tell him what the desired outcome should be, followed by the closing statement”I am surrendering to you, Mohanji”. But it was very different this time. It was total surrender. A feeling of peace spread through my being, knowing that Mohanji is with me, and accepting whatever will be… will be. I could feel myself slowly drifting away, as I lay with my little dog cuddled up next to me, while my lips were chanting the Mohanji Gayatri.

Suddenly I could feel a flash of bright light on my face and heard joyful chirping sounds. I realized I was still chanting the Mohanji Gayatri subconsciously. I was in total bliss until the familiar whirring sound of my neighbor’s lawn mower snapped me back to reality. I had slept peacefully through the night and was awakened by the morning sun against my face. I slowly moved my toes to make sure I was not dreaming. I then twitched the muscles in my arms and legs to confirm that they were fully functional. And voila! they were!

The feeling that came next is what surprised me. I felt a wave of gratitude that I was spared. I was happy, no doubt, but it was like I already knew I will be alright. I strongly believed that he would only allow what is best for me whether the experience is positive or negative and that HE is and will see me through it. This sense of security is not something I have consciously worked to develop over a period of time. It is exclusively the Grace of the Master.

I realize that my faith in Him has strengthened since I first met him, and I finally have experienced true surrender with no strings attached. Words cannot do justice to that feeling. It is the confidence that everything is going to be alright, that sweet spot, that no money, power or relationships can buy.

I wish that each of you experience this blissful connection with Mohanji. It is truly effortless. All that is required is to be open and willing to be vulnerable and let go. He takes care of the rest.

And for the naysayers… May the Force be with you!