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Vana Satsang with Guruji – Clearing the Clutter of minds

The cellphone starts ringing at 3:45am and I am all awake because it is a call from Avadhoota Nadanandaji (respectfully and affectionately addressed as Guruji by Mohanji). When He calls, you are wide awake. A gentle but firm voice (like a General informing his troops) instructs me that we have to get ready and assemble before 5:00am sharp. Then with the affection and caring of a mother tells me to ensure that we have our coffee and something to eat before we leave.

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The usual not so brief background. Guruji had informed Mohanji that He could not join us in the retreat in Shirdi as originally planned due to His ill health. Hence, soon after Mohanji came back from Europe, He decided to spend some time with Guruji in Kurnool before the retreat. We had started from Gurgaon in our ashram car literally travelling thousands of kilometers to reach Kurnool. Our hearts that were set on fire with anticipation for basking in the divine motherly love of our beloved Guruji, experienced the cool breeze of indescribable love at His sight and in His presence.

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Mohanji always says, “Each time we meet Guruji, it is difficult to say goodbye to Him when it is time to part.” This is absolutely true. His palpable love not only makes us feel at home, but establishes us in the feeling of “home coming”, which makes us wonder if we have already found the destination. Home is where our heart loves to be. And Guruji fills our heart with gentle love and as Mohanji says “He gives us all that we can take. In some cases, he even builds the capacity to take more and then gives more. The unfathomable love of an avadhoota is difficult to explain. Mohanji gave me much clarity on the mode of operation of Guruji and masters of his stature, so that I could feel, rather than see, the unconditional love and beauty of a mind-less being walking like a baby in the illusory jungle of local insensitivity. Every true master has the mindset of an innocent child. In His or Her eagerness to serve the “unconscious” minds of the world, they burn themselves out. They give all they can, even, often to undeserving hands. They keep giving unconditionally, and walk away to their world of non-dual existence effortlessly, without complaints of regrets. A true Guru is a sight to behold indeed!

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As soon as Mohanji saw Guruji, he prostrated at His lotus feet and Guruji blessed him. It was late afternoon already. As always, the motherly affection of our Guruji saw us being dispatched to have “food first” to ensure that our physical hunger was appeased after the long trip. Ramesh Garu escorted us to our rooms and then to lunch while ensuring that our baggage reached our rooms. The food, needless to say, was sumptous with mouth watering varieties served with dollops of affection and love. After a mandatory gluttonous overeating of delicious food, we met Guruji again, basked in his energy and listened to his words of love and rested for some time. This was more or less the nature of our days with Guruji during this trip which began on 18th until 24th when Mohanji and I left Guruji at Bangalore and came to Pune and then to Shirdi on 25th to attend the marriage of the son of Sulakhe Maharaj, the chief priest of Sai Baba temple in Shirdi on 26th evening. This whole trip was like a fairy tale.

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Guruji told us that 20th was the day He had set for awakening his people with a day long program in a quiet and beautiful place near the river in Kurnool in close proximity to the forests which was 3kms away from his ashram, Siddhaganj. It was titled “Vana Satsang” (a discourse in the forests) and would have talks by Mohanji, Guruji, etc with aarati, bhajans (devotional singing), chanting, etc. Guruji was meticulously planning it for some time and was expecting 150-200 people for this event. People from different parts of India – Jammu, Bengaluru, Dhar, Hyderabad, Kurnool, etc – were to attend this event.

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In spite of his failing medical health, Guruji was involved, as usual, in planning and executing this to the last detail – the program schedule, the speakers and their topics, the venue setup, the food arrangements, the route map and transportation down to the number of cars and people in each car, the musical instruments and audio equipment, the volunteer detail, ensuring continuity of service activities in Kurnool, etc. Within the blink of an eye, it became 20th – the day of the program. It is also time for us to return to our main story.🙂

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Continuing from where we left off. As we scrambled to get ready, Guruji had taken up His position by the tree in front the gates of Siddhaganj ashram. That was His vantage point to monitor and direct the proceedings – in this case shepherding and herding the flock into the cars and to the location. As we got closer to the estimated time of departure, the decibels and Guruji’s booming voice and the frequency of His exhortations to the flock to get moving started getting higher.🙂 Guruji is very strict on punctuality and does not allow any deviation. His programs have to start on time – there is no other option. Guruji, as always pushed us to get going before time. He is always prompt and seemingly impatient. I quickly gathered that his seeming impatience is his medicine to cure our native laziness. If accepted, or left unattended, our laziness grows without us being aware. Gurus throw fire on us and make us run. Some scold, some push, some shout, but everyone burns tamas unceremoniously. So as we got closer to the due time, a steady stream of people came to “check” on us requesting us to get ready soon as it was time to leave.

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We were all literally rushed into the cars and took the short drive to reach the location. We quickly reached the location, got out of the car and entered the gates. We walked passed the open space surrounded by trees and soon reached a cobbled walkway that led to the program area. On the left side was the garden with an idol of Lord Krishna in the center. A tall lamp had been placed next to the idol along with incense, oil, smudge sticks, etc. On the right side, the program area was set up on the open ground with carpets on the ground and chairs along the periphery (for those unable to sit on the floor). There were two chairs placed in the front for Guruji and Mohanji. The walkway led to a makeshift dining area where tea and coffee were being served. Beyond the waiting area was the only accommodation on the area where the open space on the porch was being used for cooking and with one room for the Masters to rest.

We had reached a bit earlier than Guruji. Hence, we ambled around surveying the surroundings and sipping on some nice milky tea. Since it was early in the morning (before 5:30am), it was still a little dark. Soon, Guruji’s car reached the location. Guruji stepped out wearing a saffron dhoti (waistcloth covering the legs) and a saffron cloth tied around hjs head like Sai Baba. As soon as he entered the gates, the people filed along on both sides of the edge of the walkway and bowed to Him. As He entered inside, Guruji had a very serious expression and was walking in a very determined fashion like He was on a mission. He looked very clear on the immense transformation He had planned for us throughout the day ahead. He glanced at the people that had assembled like a General surveying his troops. The way Guruji walked in, with confidence and grandeur, a rank outsider would have found it hard to believe if we told him that he is suffering from 5th stage cancer. His internal freedom was displaying itself in His outwardly expressions.

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As He nudged past us, His expression softened and He winked at Mohanji with a soft smile. He loves Mohanji like a son more than a brother and He never hides his feelings. Mohanji also loves the fatherly affection and lets Himself go in Guruji’s presence. Even though Guruji insists that His relationship with Mohanji is brotherly, everyone around feels a father-son relationship, especially after Mohanji inherited the powers of Guruji. There is an invisible oneness between Them. And Their love for each other is a sight to watch.

Mohanji constantly thinks about Guruji and does His best to ensure Guruji is well taken care of. The same intensity of love and concern towards Mohanji is always visible in Guruji’s eyes and words as well. He ensures, both physically and metaphysically that Mohanji is looked after well and does not leave any options unturned for that. He wants Mohanji happy always and wants Mohanji to be not only comfortable, but also well provided for and looked after. The events that took place since Their first meeting in the middle of December 2015 gave me clarity that Gyanganj was the real wire puller behind this “celestial” meeting and transfer. Every thought, word and action that transpired between Them seemed purposeful and aimed at the larger good of the world. They are two selfless people and Their union has to be for the good of the world. This is how the Heavens work.

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Back to the story again. Vana satsang started with lighting the lamp. Guruji walked towards the lamp and asked for Mohanji to join Him. He asked Mohanji to light the lamp to inaugurate the function as He chanted Om Jatavedase sunavama from the Sri Durga Suktam in His beautiful divine voice. Some from the group joined in the chorus. Guruji asked Mohanji to light the lamp even though Mohanji’s presence on 20th was not exactly pre-planned. Mohanji lit the lamp and thus the program was inaugurated. Guruji stood by Mohanji, as a loving father, making sure His son does it right. We all felt that this “hand-holding” of Mohanji by masters of Gyanganj through Avadhoota Nadananda will ensure that a lot of good things are delivered to the world through Mohanji, seamlessly, in the future. The lighting the lamp ceremony was perhaps the beginning of something rich and celestial or beginning of a new world of light and harmony, led in the energy of Mohanji – a new beginning, if the Brahmarishi title ceremony of October 10th can be considered as coronation.

After the lamp was lit, Guruji requested everyone to have tea and biscuits and then get seated. He walked around and enquired on how everyone was doing, cracking jokes and lightening the mood displaying His usual casual self. Soon it was time for the program to start and Guruji had everyone seated quickly. He asked Mohanji to sit next to Him and beckoned the whole grouo to sit closer to Him. The morning aarati that is done in the Siddhaganj ashram at 6:30am had to be done at this location since the entire Siddhaganj team was in attendance here.

Since there was still some time for 20min left for the aarati to start, Guruji decided to start the program with a bhajan (devotional song). The accompanying musicians were Swami Ajayananda on tabla, Anand Kumar on the dholak, Mohanji on cymbals🙂 and the rest of the group providing the chorus. Guruji sang a medley of bhajans that were an ode to the Guru principle. He varied the tempo and teased the audience into participation that got them out of their morning stupor. Guruji, with His forceful yet playful energy, very soon had all the people singing in unison. At one point during the singing, Guruji explained the Krishna avatar. He said that Lord Krishna is none other than Bhagawathi (The Divine Mother) herself who once desired to take a male body and manifested herself as Krishna. Where Bhagawathi is, there is Bhagavan. After He had sufficiently pumped up the group with a lot of energy, Guruji kickstarted the program by asking the group to perform the morning aarati.

The group from Siddhaganj, Kurnool led the recitation of the aarati which involved several bhajans (devotional songs) for the Guru, shlokas like the Dattatreya Kavacham, and mantra chanting. The other people who were conversant with the aarati chanted in unison. The rest of us meditated in the atmosphere sanctified by the presence of the Masters and the beautiful recitations. It was a truly surreal experience.

Guruji then led the group through a rousing bhajan on the different excuses that householders have that prevents them from entering the path of unconditional love. He poked fun at His disciples which, though playful in nature, brought out unequivocally the pitfalls, the attachments, etc in the way of the householde. Mohanji spoke about Grihasta Dharma – the spiritual path of the householder. Mohanji related the topic from the depth of His own experiences. Mohanji explained that we play various roles as we live our life daily each of which is relevant for our existence in a particular context. Mohanji mentioend that if there is clear purpose for existence then the relationship is a burden. He recounted an anecdote of Lahiri Mahasaya wherein His wife ‘momentarily’ forgot His stature and purpose due to familiarity. Mohanji mentioned about doing seva to pay their debts to Mother Earth else they have to take another life to pay off the death. Mohanji mentioned that celibacy or marriage are equally acceptable alternatives based on the orientation of the individual. Guruji concluded the session with a beautiful bhajan on the fickleness of human attachments and relationships and the need to anchor oneself only with the Guru and the Divine. Like all the bhajans that would happen through the day, it was a mix of singing, satsang (spiritual discourse) and chanting.

Guruji complemented Mohanji’s talk by highlighting the need for taking care of parents in their old age. He mentioned that Grihastha Dharma includes not just taking care of one’s spouse and children and includes our dependent parents as well. He recounted a story from His past when He would go to an old age home to spread love and cheer. One day, He noticed an old couple waiting in the morning and looking at the gates of the old age home. When Guruji enquired of them, the lady said that it was her grandson’s birthday and she was waiting for her son to get him along so she could see the grandson and celebrate his birthday. Later in the day in the evening, he noticed that the lady was still waiting with hope. She was convinced that her son would come with her grandson. This was too much for the kind and compassionate heart of Guruji. He went out and bought a cake and went to the lady. He told her, “I am sorry but your son and grandson are not coming. Would you please consider me your grandson for a few moments and celebrate the birthday?” She did celebrate her grandson’s birthday with Guruji. When Guruji related this incident, he was moved to tears. He said that leaving one’s parents all alone in an old age home is one of the greatest sins a person can commit.

All the chanting and singing had made us very hungry. We were treated to a yummy breakfast. This was followed by a session on Kaivalya Upanishad by Sri Venkata Subbaiah garu. This was in Telegu so I did not understand the content much. One factoid He shared shed some light on the operating level of an Avadhoota. Guruji usually avoids entering the sanctum sanctorum of a temple. Venkata Subbaiah garu told him that the deity of the temple gets up from their seat to welcome an Avadhoota. Hence, Guruji avoids entering the sanctum sanctorum of a temple out of respect and to avoid inconveniencing the resident deity.

Also, He revealed that various deities come to worship an Avadhoota before Brahma Muhurta. During our first trip in Dhar, Guruji had told us that he had to set aside time early in the morning for this purpose. During this time, He is usually sequestered in His room. Close disciples attending to Guruji will see flowers on the path used by the deities to Guruji’s room. I also recall reading that the hot water spring tank in Ganeshpuri was reserved for use of Bhagavan Nithyananda an hour before it was open to the public. One of Baba’s close disciples, an old lady, ventured in by mistake and was overawed seeing Bhagavan in the water with various deities and divine beings levitating in the air around Him and worshipping Him. She fell unconscious on seeing this divine sight. Bhagavan scolded her for entering in since the high energy as it could have been detrimental to her life.

Guruji then asked the group to mentally chant the mantra given by their Guru (or Hreem if they did not have one) for 30min. The energetic environment and the shift in frequencies that Guruji had created was palpable. Our spines were literally buzzing with energy. It was an amazing experience to just chant and let go. When the chanting period was over, the group from Kurnool chanted the Siddha Kunjika Stotram from the Durga Saptashati. This elevated the experience to an entirely different level. We just had to close our eyes and float on the words of the chants.

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Guruji followed this session with a sweet bhajan satsang outlining a Guru’s often thankless job of carrying the burden of His disciples and relieving them of their pain. He mentioned the anecdote of a disciple who walks on the beach doing his sadhana and sees four footsteps behind him signifying the presence of his Guru. However, when severe troubles beset him, he notices one day that there are only one set of footsteps. Thinking that his Guru has also abandoned him, he wails in despair calling to his Guru to explain the reason. The Guru tells the disciple that he is carrying the disciple on his shoulder and the one set of footprints are those of the Guru (and not of the disciple). Guruji mentioned that he was carrying everyone’s load on his shoulders. At times, the load became unbearable but He would not give up and do whatever it took without expecting anything in return. For this is the purpose of a Guru – to take people to liberation without giving any thought to their own comforts.

After this wonderful satsang, it was time for lunch. The food as usual was exceedingly delicious. It was hard to resist the urge to overeat bearing in mind the need to stay awake for the late afternoon session. We were supposed to assemble at 2pm people had about an hour to rest. We found out that Guruji has fallen in the garden – probably due to the karmic stock that He was burning through his body. He decided to rest a bit longer. Mohanji also chose to rest a while.

When we reassembled, it was Guruji’s show from that point on. He continued with his delightful bhajan satsangs that had everyone lapping every word. Guruji also mentioned that he had not had any food since morning. He said that a mother feeds her children first and then has food. There was one person amongst the crowd who hadn’t taken food for some reason. Guruji said that He would also not have food until that person had food. (Guruji did not have any food till evening until after that person ate food).

He told us a story of Lord Siva to explain this incident. Mother Parvathi (Lord Shiva’s consort) requests Lord Shiva to have some food. Lord Siva tells her that unless every being of Kailash is not fed, he cannot have food. Mother Parvathi insists that everyone has eaten. Lord Siva asks her to get the bowl of sugar and she spots an ant trying hard to hold onto a grain of sugar. Only after Lord Shiva sees the ant having the sugar, he accepts to take food. The next session was the Q&A section with Guruji and Mohanji firing away answers to a long list of questions. After this, there were several bhajans from Guruji. The Vana Satsang concluded soon after sunset with a dance from our beloved Guruji.

We were served a delicious dinner. Guruji was practically fasting more or less the whole of that day and ate with the volunteers and the cleaners after most people had left. The way Guruji honours the serving people is a sight to watch. He has deep respect and love for the poor and needy. He is always considered of their well-being more than his own.

I cannot even begin to explain what all happened in that space on that day. About 150 people sang, danced and dipped themselves in divine awareness in the presence of Guruji and Mohanji. Guruji insisted on Mohanji sitting next to him. It was kind of a handing over. As Mohanji later said, “It was remarkable to see how Guruji is cleaning up the karmic junk of people through his invisible and unorthodox way of singing and dancing. Everybody returned home as better individuals, much lighter and quieter.”

My level of subtlety did not allow me to see much deeper stuff that happened beyond eyes can perceive. Yet, I could see transformation and spontaneous gratitude in the eyes of people. It was interesting to see how Guruji made a positive difference in the inner world of people within one sunrise and sunset. Lots to learn for everyone! He sits like the typical authoritative head of a family, shouts at people, birds and animals. He chases away people’s inertia. He is sensitive, yet matter-of-facted. No nonsense anywhere, any time. No time to waste. Work is worship.

What changes happened within, I do not know. But, I know that positive changes do happen in the presence of true masters. It does. It did. Mohanji and Avadhoota Nadananda are one. There was no visible separation between them, as each was concerned about the well-being of the other. There is no separation between them in spirit and energy too. Guruji told Mohanji as soon as we came in “Be prepared to go to Gyanganj.” Mohanji is travelling fast in his path. We all are travelling with him. Gyanganj through Guruji has gifted to the world a substantial inheritor, as Gyanganj did many times earlier.

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Guruji never spared any opportunity to kick egos and hypocrisy of people. He did that spontaneously. At the same time, when it is time to love, it has the same or more intensity. No emotion is stable. In the case of a true master, you can see the changing moods, purely based on purpose much more distinctly, as they are empty vessels unbound by human space, time or emotions. They display only to teach. Each master has his own unique style which makes them distinct and inimitable. Mohanji’s approach is totally different from that of Guruji, perhaps because he is working with people abroad more than India. His way is more subtle and quiet, yet effective which we know by the increasing number of people trying to reach him every single day.

The show has just begun. The show will continue. The show can never stop. Those who have eyes to see will see. Those who have hearts will perceive. Those who understand the value will never leave this celestial satsang that flows unhindered through various mouths, aimed at clearing the forest of dark ignorance and ego. Masters are gifts of God. Not understanding a master is our handicap. Only surrender will help in such times. Mohanji always says “Those who have eyes to see will see. The rest have chosen blindness. Let them be. Bless them so that in some life, they will remove their veil of ego and start seeing the truth. We have no agenda. Like the eternal sun, we provide light to see and heat to burn inertia. Those who choose to use it will be benefitted. Those who ignore it will have to come back and use it someday because nobody can enjoy darkness for long. Sooner or later, everybody will crave for the light of truth.”

The Vana Satsang in Mohanji’s words

The Vana Satsang that happened on 20th November with Avadhoota Nandananda at Kurnool was actually a great event. I do not think we can even begin to understand the depth of the activity that happened, the depth of the cleansing that happened. Also, I don’t think that we can fathom the size of the activity in terms of the cleansing or elevation of awareness that happened. Guruji was in a different mood. He was unwell in the night and was vomiting blood. However, in the morning, He was chanting and dancing like nothing happened. He was trying to give everybody something or the other. I do not think anybody has gone home empty handed. They have all got something. From what I could see, Guruji was cleansing a lot of people at different levels, layers, etc.

Since I was also getting into a kind of trance state, I was trying to sit at a distance and watch the show. I did not want to have to bother about the function or affect Guruji’s flow. So I tried to sit slightly away but Guruji insisted that I should sit next to Him. So I sat next to Him. I also had a functional role there since I had to talk about Grihastha Ashram. But I was in a different mood that day. Guruji asked Me to light the lamp to inaugurate the function. Right from the time I lit the lamp in the morning, I was in a different state from then onwards. I was sitting next to Guruji but it was not helping me. In fact, sitting next to Guruji was triggering my expansion whenever Guruji was going into expansion. So, in a way, I am 100% sure Guruji understood that I may go into trance, because this is like two fires merging or like a fire igniting some dried wood, it catches fire very fast. So now and then when the program was on, he was either tapping me on my knee or He was holding my hand. Those were the times when I was actually on the verge of moving further or going into trance. So, He kept me grounded more or less and He asked me to speak, and speaking was very difficult because I was getting internalized. But then, I tried to crack jokes to make the situation as light as possible. Also, the excellent food helped a bit in grounding. Sujata garu told me to lie down a little bit which I did. Even though it was 15 or 20 minutes, it was quite a substantial help.

Layer by layer changes were happening in me after the transfer of powers to me by Guruji on October 10th. So this event helped to solidify that process or to make it more clear and concrete.  I asked Him later and He confirmed. One other thing Guruji had said was that it will take time for cleansing due to the Sanskaras of the past. So it is going away slowly, it is getting washed away, but it will take time. Often, when we come in contact with a Master of the stature of Guruji, we cannot even begin to understand the level from which He operates. He plays it very cool and He is always humble by nature. So we begin to feel, “Oh, He is just an ordinary man.” But that is not the truth. He is very, very, very high, and we cannot even begin to understand how high or how deep.

He told me that I am taken care of, before the transfer and even after the transfer and it will all be fine and well guided. So there is nothing to worry about. He said that it is important to know that it is one family. Everybody is together, all people are together and once you are in the family and especially when Gyanganj takes over, there is nothing more to worry. They have taken over. So it is just a question of time before things will be revealed. I think Guruji played a major role in grounding me when the function was happening. I think the function was just an opportunity to be together with Him in close proximity. Even though the function was happening on one side, there was something else happening within me. I was getting cleansed, or I was getting grounded or whatever you want to call it. There was something going on inside and Guruji said, “Don’t analyze, just don’tt analyze, just be.” So I don’t analyze it, but the bottom line is that something has happened for sure.

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So further to the October 10th transfer, 20th of November was the second stage. This is what I felt. Of course the function went well and Guruji did huge cleansing for many people, which all of them will experience in the days to come. I also saw how much work He is doing for the sake of people, those who were present there and also those who were not present there. There is so much happening, so much that He is doing. It is unbelievably great. There are no words to explain, and all that remains is extreme gratitude to Gyanganj as well as to Guruji and to all the Masters who are orchestrating this. Just gratitude. I do not exist. Only the tradition exists.

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The Kailash Within

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by Deloshni Govender

When I started following Mohanji in 2013, I never knew the Grace which was in store for me. Someone should have turned on the sign so that I could fasten my seatbelt! At the outset, it seemed like a run of the mill encounter with a Master whom I chose to follow. Ego allowed me the luxury of thinking that I did the choosing.

Since meeting and following Babaji (Mohanji), I had an intense urge to accompany him on his yatra (pilgrimage) to Kailash. Grace kept me unaware of the trip in 2014. When we had a Skype call with him in early 2015, I voiced my desire. He said nothing more than to find the Kailash within. My mind said that I will still go later in the year as there will probably be a yatra. The year saw devastating earthquakes and I realised then what the Master meant. He knew at the beginning of the year that the yatra will not happen. Being a new bhakta (follower), I was mildly impressed as I had never been exposed to any of his leelas (divine plays) at this stage.

When the yatra for 2016 was announced, my heart did a lurch. Here was my opportunity! I will go to Kailash! As the application deadline approached, I realised with a sinking heart that this yatra too may not happen for me. I was not prepared to go into debt to make this yatra a possibility. I must also add that I have a tendency to put my dreams last. Every possibility that presented itself was shot down as fast as it appeared. I finally resigned myself to not even applying as I knew that the costs will exceed my budget. But I knew in my heart that if Babaji said the words “Come to Kailash!”, I would do anything possible to go.

In May 2016, we were ecstatic to have Babaji with us in SA. At a private breakfast, the topic of Kailash was brought up. Babaji asked me if I am going to Kailash and I responded in the negative. He asked me if I had read the book “Kailash with Mohanji” and I replied that I had not. His response was a firm “You should”. With that he changed the topic. I was gutted. Baba didn’t say that I should come and even worse he asked me to read a book which would just increase my desire to be with him at Kailash. I always follow Baba’s instructions but this was one instruction my heart could not bear to follow.

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Grace Flows

In July, Warren shared a post on the family group chat. I read it in tears but the dam really broke down when I saw that the excerpt was from the book “Kailash with Mohanji”. This created a strong need to buy the book online and begin reading. Just reading the introduction I understood why Babaji wanted me to read this book! It spoke of people who also travelled with Babaji to Kailash in spirit.

I began savouring the book page by page and realised, more and more, how Babaji carries his bhaktas with him in spirit to Kailash. The only problem was how I could become an eligible bhakta. How could I ensure that I was one of those destined to travel with Baba in spirit? How would this insignificant speck of dust ever dare to request such grace? My mind made sure that I knew that I may not be one of the eligible ones. I was, after all, not that special and I have done nothing special to warrant such grace.

I started having weird flu-like symptoms and intense bouts of fever, where I would have to just leave work and go home. I went to the doctor who said I had absolutely normal medical stats. Besides a mild post nasal drip, she could find nothing which would bring on fevers and utter fatigue. I slept for more than 13 hours at a time which is incredibly unusual for me. I messaged Swami Mohana Bhaktananda Bharati who comforted me and jovially said that he loves it when medical science is baffled. My journey to Kailash had unknowingly begun!

We began planning for Swami’s visit to Johannesburg and I was so unwell that I planned on attending the first day programme for an hour and then just going home to rest. During the introduction, Swami played a bhajan for us to dance to. My heart chakra heated up and this warmth expanded to my entire body. I immediately began feeling better and stayed the rest of the programme.

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Healing Meditation at Hare Krishna temple, Midrand

The second day began with a Havan for all Kailash yatris and I chose to attend. During the Havan, I saw Swami’s eyes change in expression many times as each deity was invoked. I was in utter bliss participating in the havan. We all had some of the fruit that was offered to Babaji. I had a little but could not eat more than a piece or two.

Lunch was served. For some inexplicable, petty reason, I became upset and refused to take a meal. I could not bear to be around people so I took a walk to my car and just sat there chanting Baba’s mantra for a while to calm this unshakeable irritation. Thus began my detachment from the world and my fast for Kailash. I would not have been able to travel with a heavy meal. I went back in and took my seat for the Satsang with Swami and I saw Swami give me an intense look from metres away in the dining room where he was eating. I was embarrassed as I felt that maybe he had picked up on my irritation.

I enjoyed the Satsang and the bhajans which followed. I went deep into each song and it felt like I was being carried somewhere far as each deity was invoked even without my  willing it. Swami started giving Shaktipat to everyone and I was semi aware as each one went up to him. I was lost in the bhajans. The bhajans were indeed creating a very charged atmosphere. We started singing “Om Namah Shivaya” and the chant spontaneously somehow changed to “Om Parabrahma, Om Parabrahma, Om Parabrahma, Jai Mohanji!” I started feeling Babaji’s presence very strongly but this is normal at most of our meditations and bhajans.

Finally Ajay beckoned for me to receive Shaktipat and I felt myself get up and walk to Swami. He tied a sacred thread on my hand which he had brought from Vaishnodevi temple and began giving me Shaktipat. I remember still singing “Om Parabrahma, Om Parabrahma, Om Parabrahma, Jai Mohanji!” and this went on in my head. I felt a Devi energy rise within me almost like I was going to go into a trance. I became scared and opened my eyes. I looked straight into Swami’s intense eyes and he asked me to just relax. I felt protected and taken care of so I closed my eyes again and I felt myself grow and become SO strong. I felt like my leg was rising for a giant step and that I was turning within the vastness of the Universe. It was such an incredible feeling. I was powerful, protected, loved and in bliss. I later found out from Ami that I had indeed raised my leg physically and that I had indeed done a physical turn in Swami’s arms.

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The Mohanji Family lost in bhajans to the divine

I sat down to enjoy the bhajans again and could not stop floating, it was like this intense energy kept rising within me. I staggered back to Swami and asked him to help. He put his hand on my heart chakra and I felt myself melt into nothingness and then come back into my body. I later found out that I did physically fall to the ground as well.

After this experience I felt light and in such intense bliss. Love just overflowed and this went on during Aarati and even after I went home. I could not take a proper meal until the next day. I could not sleep. I called Yugen the next day to enquire if they had reached Durban safely and he put the call on speaker so that I could speak to Swami. Swami indicated that my yearning was so great to do the parikrama (circumambulation) of Kailash that I had indeed walked around Kailash in that one turn.

Three days later during Kriya, I saw everything with crystal clear clarity. The inexplicable fevers and fatigue. Sleeping too much like my body was taking a huge strain. The reason I got upset and did not eat was in order to fast for what was coming. The turn in Swami’s arms and subsequent parikrama of Kailash. The moment when Swami touched my heart chakra and gave me shanti (peace) causing me to fall, was me indeed surrendering at the feet of Namashivaya. I became the petals at Babaji’s feet! Minutes after Kriya came the text from Swami saying that my experience should be shared. That Mohanji fulfilled my desire out of his mercy and grace. That Mohanji IS Kailash and that Mansarovar is His grace.

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How do I know this to be true and not a figment of my always overactive imagination? Babaji says that it is how the experience changes you that allows you to know that it was real. I feel lighter and in perpetual bliss. I had three days of intense release. I would just cry continuously when I think of my love for Babaji and Swamiji. I had various emotions surface with intensity and then get released like I was burning Karma at a rapid rate. But most important, was the love that continuously flowed within me and outside of me. I just had explosions of love each time I thought of my Mohanji family. I was beaming huge smiles at strangers. I was in permanent gratitude for this existence. I felt like it was Diwali inside of me with fireworks and celebrations happening on an internal level.

Why do I write this? I want every single bhakta to know that no matter how insignificant YOU think you are, you are the world to Mohanji. I want you to know that if Mohanji can take this worthless piece of dust, make it shine and take it on a yatra of Kailash, he will do the same and more for you. I want you to know that Mohanji knows your heart’s desires before you are even consciously aware of them and that he makes it his duty to fulfil each of your wishes. I want you to know that I am NOTHING special, I have done no special sadhanas except that which Mohanji asks us all to do. I am the same as each of you and grace still flowed into my life. I have done nothing to earn this grace but such is the love of Mohanji that it flowed regardless into my life. I have been on my knees crying in gratitude for this grace and it’s my singular mission to make you believe that each of you are being carried in spirit on this yatra to Kailash as well. Just have eyes to see and a heart to receive, He will do the rest. Reach into the depths of your being and truly find the Kailash within.

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The Kailash within….my Kailash and I are one: Photo credit Mitesh Khatiwala

Shared with the utmost love and gratitude at the lotus feet of my beloved Baba Mohanji. I cannot ever thank you in these earthly ways, I can only let my heart try to explain. My beloved Swami MBB, I feel the same about You. You have put so much into this being that words fail me. My darling spiritual sister Milica, your blessings brought me to Baba’s feet. I love the three of you so much I can only cry when I think of the extent!

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Faith & Surrender

By Viji Sagar

I always believed that I understood what faith and surrender meant and that I practiced it consistently. Until…

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It was a beautiful Sunday afternoon, bright sunshine with a touch of coolness and a gentle breeze. A perfect day to celebrate Onam with family and friends. After a scrumptious but heavy meal, I felt a slight nagging headache set in. I chalked it up to over eating and took a long nap, only to wake up with an amplified headache, a tingling sensation and a little heaviness on the whole left side of my body. As the evening progressed, the discomfort increased. I could feel heaviness in my tongue and my left hand and legs felt like pillars. It started to seem like symptoms of a full on stroke.

Since my husband was traveling, I was alone at home.

It was late at night and I did not want to wake up anyone. As I was contemplating my next move, I caught a glimpse of Mohanji’s picture. Wondering why I didn’t think of Him earlier, I connected to him immediately, prayed that I am surrendering this situation to him and whatever HE decides I accept, with the belief that he would give me the strength to handle whatever the outcome may be.

This, my friends, was a turning point for me. I usually pray to Mohanji and tell him what the desired outcome should be, followed by the closing statement”I am surrendering to you, Mohanji”. But it was very different this time. It was total surrender. A feeling of peace spread through my being, knowing that Mohanji is with me, and accepting whatever will be… will be. I could feel myself slowly drifting away, as I lay with my little dog cuddled up next to me, while my lips were chanting the Mohanji Gayatri.

Suddenly I could feel a flash of bright light on my face and heard joyful chirping sounds. I realized I was still chanting the Mohanji Gayatri subconsciously. I was in total bliss until the familiar whirring sound of my neighbor’s lawn mower snapped me back to reality. I had slept peacefully through the night and was awakened by the morning sun against my face. I slowly moved my toes to make sure I was not dreaming. I then twitched the muscles in my arms and legs to confirm that they were fully functional. And voila! they were!

The feeling that came next is what surprised me. I felt a wave of gratitude that I was spared. I was happy, no doubt, but it was like I already knew I will be alright. I strongly believed that he would only allow what is best for me whether the experience is positive or negative and that HE is and will see me through it. This sense of security is not something I have consciously worked to develop over a period of time. It is exclusively the Grace of the Master.

I realize that my faith in Him has strengthened since I first met him, and I finally have experienced true surrender with no strings attached. Words cannot do justice to that feeling. It is the confidence that everything is going to be alright, that sweet spot, that no money, power or relationships can buy.

I wish that each of you experience this blissful connection with Mohanji. It is truly effortless. All that is required is to be open and willing to be vulnerable and let go. He takes care of the rest.

And for the naysayers… May the Force be with you!

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Grace at the Bosnian Pyramids

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How to describe the indescribable? How can God’s grace be conveyed on paper or in electrons? This is an attempt to catch a glimpse of the grace that I felt, if that is possible.

I was not willing to go to the Bosnian Pyramids. But, Alexandra, my life partner, had a different view. Thanks to her persistence, I found myself on the bus to Sarajevo. In the past few months before the retreat, I had been haunted by disturbing pictures, where people that I love and respect had suffered terribly. During the retreat, it was so difficult to handle it that I could not stand it anymore. I decided to leave the retreat and go back home.

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I went to Hana to apologise to her for the decision I had made. But, seeing what was happening, she asked me to stay. Her warm hand and a look full of love started my cleansing. Though my whole body was cramping in waves and the tears were flowing like a waterfall. Almost at the same moment, beings of light came into my room. All of our teachers were there. The ones who, all these years with the warmth in their hearts and smiles on their faces, had been giving Shaktipats and answering every question, and asking nothing in return. With their full attention, love and gentle humour, they helped me to calm down. They explained to me that I was going through the process of cleansing and that if I left now, I would prevent that and would be permanently “cemented”. Being in heaven, only surrounded by women, I accepted the obvious situation. No matter how hard it was, I had to stay.

Of course, our beloved Mohanji knew what was going on with me. The next morning, I went to talk with our dear Father “one to one”. Surrounded by divine peace, he listened to me and said that those pictures which haunted me were from my previous lives, and they were here so that I could understand it and not because I should suffer. From that moment, it seemed as if the light came into my life. I was able to see. I saw the things that I had never seen before. At any time, someone was there to help me – at Yoga class, at the row to the pyramid to push me ahead, to give me a napkin, to lighten up the space with humour, to illuminate the heart with its warm look, to share their experience…

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Bearing in mind that the hardest part had gone, I was walking in the row to the Pyramid of the Moon. At that moment, I did not realize that I was given a strawberry to boost my energy by my Master. Oh, it was exactly what I needed that day! I climbed up to the top like a chamois, without feeling tired. Since we comfortably settled down in a small orchard, we started with mantras. A few minutes later it started all over again – waving body cramps and tears. All around me, I heard sobbing, moaning… – the releasing of all unnecessary baggage. My beloved Guru approached me and while massaging my back he told me to let go. He went to all those who needed help. At the same moment, all our other teachers started to help everyone who was in need. Shaktipats had such a beneficial effect. They reached everyone not just once but several times. The love they transmitted at that moment is indescribable. It can only be experienced. Then, someone started to laugh. I was lightened up by the light in the shadow of a tree. Only after Conscious Walking, effects of mantra started to decrease.

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Afterwards, the grace of Shaktipat was followed by our beloved Guru Mohanji and Jan Esman – two Shaktipats from two Gurus. A little grain of sand received God’s grace. There was nothing I had done to be eligible to deserve that – the divine unconditional love. After each Shaktipat, I was additionally cleansed. I could hardly walk. Others were going through their own cleansings as well. Yet, someone was always there to help you to go through the process. Thank you. The most touching moment was when Guru was giving Shaktipat to the other Guru. There was so much tenderness and love at that moment. The aarati, that followed afterward, was too short for all those who wanted to connect with the consciousness of the Master. Then, during the blessings, we were all kneeling in front of God in two bodies, two Gurus. At that moment, I cannot explain better, I felt God. Again I started to cleanse myself immersed in tears and gratitude.

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There is one more experience that I would like to share.

This lasted throughout each day of the retreat and culminated during my return home. Slowly, very slowly, I began to feel the presence of a person. Her presence was always there, at lunchtime, in the conference hall during the talks with our Teacher, during the walks on the pyramids. The conversations were always pleasant, easy and gentle, and sprinkled with flowers. The pleasant connection could be felt there. Once, while she was clearly upset, in tears, and asking our Guru questions, I felt a deep urge to help her and protect her. I had come to the pyramids to have a spiritual experience and I would experience the romantic one? The last day on the bus, at the border, she got sick. Besides all those healers around her, she called me. I can move my furniture, chop wood, go shopping, but I have no knowledge about healing. I thank all our dear healers who helped her with their energies and love to overcome difficult moments of cleansing. In the moments of laughter, cramps and tears, Hana told us that Rosna had been my sister in a previous life. We had been alone and had a difficult life. This is where my worries and connection with her stems from.

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As our beloved Mohanji said, I will never be the same. I am more open and I feel lighter. I am happy that I can accept people as they are. Now, my meditations are cleaner and deeper. When the dark clouds come, they disappear much faster. I am immensely grateful to our beloved Gurus and all participants of the retreat for their love and light they spread upon all of us. I would like to thank my Alexandra for having faith in me when I did not. I am grateful to her for the love and strength with which she had guided me for years to accept the divinity.

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Translated into English by Staša Mišić

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Meeting my Master

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By Sanja

This is a story on the inevitable things that were drawn in the map of our lives a long time ago. I am thankful to God for that because if I had shaped my destiny with my current state of mind, I would have descended into an abyss by now. I am an ordinary girl, born and raised in an ordinary family. I have neither supernatural powers nor abilities, I swear🙂

Since an early age, I have been interested in spirituality because life circumstances forced me into it. Being born in an interfaith marriage, where my mother is a Catholic and my father is a Muslim who have never cared about religion and faith, I had to find the answers on my own. Even though this seemed to be a very unfortunate thing during my upbringing especially in those post-war times, it was, in fact, the best thing that could happen to me since I had to turn my brain on and wake up!

Since Christians psychically harassed me, I was disgusted with that religion, and Islam was far away to me. I was searching for my answers in Eastern philosophy and religion. Thus, I came to various spiritual teachers and gurus. Then I realized that this concept of spirituality was not unfamiliar to me and it also taught me the true value of Christianity and all other religions.

For several years, I had followed Mooji and his teachings. He was the first living teacher who had deeply touched my heart even though I had never met him, at least not physically. He was my first guide and comfort and he used to come to my dreams regularly. We would talk and have satsangs, and afterwards he would leave. When I asked him if I could go with him, he would always give me a sign to stay and not go after him. At that time, I did not understand what that meant. I had a great desire to see him, but all doors were closed to me. I thought that I had bitterly messed something up in my past lives since I could not get the Master in my present life.

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The year 2013 was the most difficult one for me. I struggled in all areas of my life. I had neither the strength nor the will to cope with the outside world, and started to withdraw into myself. I realized that drinking coffee, unraveling spiritual adventures and competing with others about who had bigger halo above his head had no use. Even though I was surrounded with spiritual people where spirituality was bursting on all sides, I was getting worse and worse. I felt like a dog chasing its own tail. Everything seemed so empty and artificial.

I gave up any concept of spirituality. Actually, I did not give up, life pushed me into a corner, stripped me and forced me to leave everything out of my hand – every concept, every idea, every expectation. One night, in my desperate state I prayed so seriously, that I actually ordered to God to send me someone who could really really help me. That was a desperate cry of my soul, and I knew He heard me since I was yelling my head off.

After this, I sat on my laptop lightheartedly. While I was surfing through Facebook, I ran into the text “Back to basics”. It was so absorbing that I read it in a few minutes. My heart was pounding, my soul was soaking information up like a sponge and I did not realize what was happening. I immediately started to type the name of the page “Mohanji” into Google to see what it was, and when I clicked on the images, I nearly fell off my chair. Of course, at that moment, I did not understand anything. I only knew that this was a man with special eyes who had great texts.🙂

Very quickly it became clear to me that he was the answer to my prayer. Finally, God took me seriously. Sometimes you really need to shout out.🙂 The last time I dreamt Mooji, he was cheerful as always, waved at me and with a great smile he showed me the thumb up. I understood that like a blessing and conformation of what had happened. Inside me, I calmly realized that I had just found my Master, or more precisely He had found me. Even though it was a life changing experience, I still had my dark path ahead of me which was waiting for me to go through it. But at that moment, I had the biggest lamp in the world and there was no fear that I could fall somewhere.

The time of the next retreat with Mohanji was getting closer, and I was in a panic not knowing how I would get there. At that I time I had no job and was completely out of money. Mohanji just briefly said: “Don’t worry. I’ll take care of everything. See you!” After that, my opportunities for income began to line up. They were small yet very important to me. God sent me people who needed my services and who abundantly rewarded my effort, even more than they should have. Even though I had often suspected, Mohanji’s words – “See ya!” really came true. He always does his job.

This is a story on how sometimes you can try, dig deep and give all you’ve got to reach your goal, but if it is not the plan of your soul, there is no chance it will ever happen. I was dying of desire to see Mooji and it never happened, even though I invested hundred times more effort to see him than to see Mohanji. Yet, that door was closed to me because it was not my path. “When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.” What is meant for you will not pass you by. What belongs to us, no one can take it away, and what we cannot have, it never belonged to us anyway.

When I came back home from my first retreat, my sister asked me: “So, what is he like?” I said: “Do you know the feeling, the scent of the childhood that we have always known? Well, that is Him!🙂 He is not a person. He is the principle that goes throughout eternity, a road sign, the light brighter than a thousand suns. The only thing is that we are honored because this Principle decided to put on a human suit.”

At my first retreat, I had a concern that bothered me so much. I was urged to ask him when we would see each other again, and wanted to beg him if it could be in less than a year because I knew I could not stand to wait longer. But, I was embarrassed to ask such a stupid question, and, moreover, I was afraid of his answer. I was afraid that he would say: “Well, see you in a year.” So, I remained silent and mourned that terrible possibility inside myself.

But after just several months, there had been a rumor that Mohanji was coming to Serbia for a few days. It was his private visit, but there was a possibility for an open satsang. I worked at that time and was not able to take a day off easily. Yet, I decided to go to Novi Sad, stay at my friend’s place, and if it happened to see Mohanji, it would be great. If not, at least I was very close to him ϑ

The day when I was on my way to Novi Sad, my friend sent me a message: “Satsang is tomorrow.” I couldn’t believe. I wanted to jump for joy because I was not hoping for satsang. Of course, the whole year had not passed and we saw each other again. He even knows the tiniest wishes of our soul. What’s more, time periods between our meetings have always been less than a year ever since.

When I look back at old me, I cannot say that that person does not exist anymore because she does. I am still me, just free from fears, doubts, worries and other diseases of this platform. This kind of negativity cannot exist in His consciousness. I always say that Mohanji is not Aladdin’s lamp, so we can constantly ask of him “give me this, give me that”. But, the fact is that most of my wishes have come true without being asked of him. And some of my goals were really difficult to accomplish. Each obstacle in front of me has been taken away by an invisible hand and each crisis situation has ended well. I have never had to ask nor pray for it. When you are in His consciousness, these things come naturally. So, instead of tugging at him, bothering him with chatting and begging like beggars, rather connect to His Consciousness. From that moment, everything starts flowing like a river, elegantly passing by all obstacles.

Often, people are not clear about what this is all about and who He really is. Some of them wonder how the real Guru can be married and have a family, why he is wearing jeans, a watch and sun glasses, and why he is riding a motorcycle. While, on the other hand, others cannot understand who that bearded man is and why he is worshiped. The truth is all of this and none of this.🙂 He would feel much nicer to sit somewhere in the Himalayas, of course. This is an example of real life, though. We live in the 21 st century where most people have to work and earn a leaving, raise children, pay bills. It is not difficult to be spiritual in sterile and controlled conditions such as: ashrams, monasteries, isolated mountains. Yet, the true test of spiritual strength and stability is being able to live in this concrete jungle without going insane, and to be a part of this world but not of the world, keeping your heads in the heavens and your feet firmly on the ground.

Maybe someone’s path is just to stay isolated in the ashram. But mine is not, at least not for now. I am so grateful to God for connecting me with such a great teacher, who is my inspiration and my guiding star. It is easy to go through life when you know and feel that he holds your hand firmly, and nothing in this world can be compared with that kind of security. When you know that before your fall to the ground, someone will fall beneath you to soothe your pain. When you know that when you are walking along the edge and when you are playing with the fire, someone is watching you closely and receives hits for you. Unconditional love is His real name.

I hope I will give back to the world at least a hundredth part of what I have got from Him. If I succeed in this, I will die as a happy person.

Love, Sanja

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My journey on the sacred path

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By Subhasree Thottungal

Mohanji, during the first release process, instead of any emotions coming out, I saw an amazing picture– a lotus flower and your face in the middle, then Maa Durga appeared sitting on a tiger in exactly the same way in middle of the lotus, then Maa Saraswati came with a Veena and finally Maa Kali. When am I supposed to release the blocked emotions? Why did I see this picture and then again why all the Goddesses?” This was my question to Mohanji while he was having his lunch before leaving for the airport on Sunday, 24th July 2016. Probably not the most appropriate time to bother him with the question. But I couldn’t resist the urge to ask him as this was puzzling me since the experience from the day before, on the 2nd day of our retreat.

The spontaneous answer came from Mohanji, “Because they were there! I called all of them during this process.” He looked at me. His eyes had the tremendous assurance for me. That was indeed a true experience, not any mind game! Oh how enlightening, just being in the proximity of the Guru brings all the truth in front, just like crystal clear water!

This was the experience during the weekend retreat with Mohanji in London from 22nd to 24th July, exactly one year since I first met Mohanji, a new birth for me in the spiritual path. I don’t hesitate to share my experience. With your permission, I take you down memory lane on the few important events since July 2015…

18th July 2015:

Hemant bhai and Mita were hosting a satsang with Mohanji at their residence and they had kindly invited us too. Hemant Bhai had mentioned about Mohanji a few times earlier and so we thought it will be a privilege to be part of the satsang. My husband, my two sons and I went there with a completely open mind. Mohanji arrived and after the welcome aarati, he took his seat. The atmosphere in the room was amazing, very pure, peaceful and full of love and devotion. Mohanji started answering our questions which were indeed very enlightening. Finally, it was time to leave. With an ailment in his right foot, Mohanji was walking with pain and so few people helped him get down the doorstep and inside the car while holding him very carefully. I was standing right behind a door and watching, and suddenly an elegant picture flashed in front of my eyes – this was as if the “panda padhiari” (priests of Puri Jagannath temple) were embracing the huge idol of Lord Shree Jagannath getting down the “baisi pahach” (22 steps) of the temple to get to his “Ratha” (Chariot).

An electric current ran through my body – what have I just seen! It was the day of “Rath Yatra” and I just got the visual of Lord Jagannath in the process of Rath yatra! Rath Yatra is the famous Chariot festival of Lord Jagannath of Puri, Odisha – my motherland. By flashing this picture before my eyes through Mohanji, what has my lord Jagannath indicated to me? I had no sense to react to this, the experience stayed with me since then.

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25th July 2015, Satsang at Retreat:

Mita informed me that on the last day of the retreat week, there will be a satsang that will be open to all. I was drawn to it. With some fear on how to travel there all alone, I started to drive. Just after few minutes, Hemant bhai called and said that two other ladies from a nearby place are travelling and I can join them! The path and journey to the satsang became easier and clearer. Reached Gilwell Park. Amazing peace and happiness in that place. Maybe it was the presence of the Guru! Satsang began. Sitting there in front and looking at Mohanji, his words came as a shower of peace and love. Received first ever Shaktipat from Mohanji. Just being around for few hours in the proximity of the Guru. There was an amazing feeling of transformation inside. Picture of the Jagannath visuals in Mohanji was crystal clear. Finally, I couldn’t restrict myself to mention about this previous week’s experience to Hemant Bhai. As soon as he heard this, he rushed to Mohanji and I followed him. Hemant Bhai narrated my experience to Mohanji. I then came to know that I am not alone to have such an experience. Many other people have similar visions. Some see Shiva, some see Hanuman, some see Sai Baba, and some see Jesus… …so on and so forth. The message was clear – a true guru is totally transparent so that you see the reflection of God in him.

How can I express my gratitude to have come in the proximity of such a Guru? Is it real that a Guru has come in my life!!

Guru Purnima Celebration in London– 8th Aug 2015:

Another opportunity came to meet Mohanji again and be part of an auspicious celebration of Guru Purnima. We all got the opportunity to sit and watch Mohanji and Devi performing the Havan and then be in the Satsang. Power of Purity meditation followed by bhajans and finally aarati to the Guru. A very sacred atmosphere filled with devotion and purity. It was my turn to offer the aarati. After I finished, Mohanji called me and said, “Translate the PoP meditation in Odiya and record in your voice.” He also called Vijay bhai standing nearby and told him to facilitate. I am just speechless to hear this. An instruction from the Guru on the day of Guru Purnima. What more can I ask for!! Do I really deserve this? Is this a dream?

Jan 2016, Palakkad, Kerala:

Annual holidays for a month in Dec-Jan t0 visit both our families in Odisha and Kerala. Ever since I have left my motherland Odisha, I visit the Jagannath temple, Puri, every time I visit Odisha. It is a ritual not to be missed. However, something happened this time and I missed the chance. Coming to my second home (my matrimonial home) in Palakkad, my mind would sometimes bother me, “Oh! I missed seeing Lord Jagannath”. But something would calmly assure me, “Don’t worry. Lord Jagannath is with you.” Holidays were nearly finishing. The new year 2016 had arrived. Time for returning to London was getting closer. My husband called Mohanji’s father who stays in Palakkad too. We had thought of paying them a visit. When we spoke on phone, Mohanji’s father said, “Mohanji is coming to Palakkad tomorrow evening. You can come and meet him.” This was the most powerful and elevating news that was least expected and a dream come true. That night before going to sleep, I sent Mohanji a message to confirm if I can come and meet him and the time.

Early in the morning, I felt as if I received a phone call and on receiving that, found Mohanji on the other side, who confirmed me a time period that I can go to his home and meet. Suddenly I woke up from sleep to realise that it was only a dream! I told my husband, who was leaving for London with my elder son that morning, about this. Later that morning, a message came from Mohanji, specifying the time, exactly what I received in the dream that morning! Finally, the time came. I went to Mohanji’s home with my mother in law and younger son. I was meeting Mohanji once again! A clear message flashed inside. Even though I missed going to Jagannath temple in Puri, Jagannath came to me to give the darshan! Tears came in my eyes. Tears of love and gratitude. Oh my God! You have been so kind to me, it’s just unbelievable! I had no doubt whatsoever in my mind anymore. I had now realised what Mohanji meant to me and what his reality was!

5th – 6th May 2016, London:

I had been waiting eagerly to meet Mohanji again. He was coming to London for the inauguration of the Garuda Murti in Skandavale temple, Wales. We met on 5th May when the satsang happened. The convoy was travelling to Skandavale the next morning. I was still wondering whether I would be able to go. Not being a great planner, I had, of course,  missed booking myself in the convoy. I hoped that we could just book a place the day before and go there. But alas, all bed and breakfast nearby were booked. I accepted and calmed my mind that, maybe, I was not meant to go there. If it was meant to be, then I would go. An hour later, Hemant bhai called. Someone from the convoy had to cancel. So there was indeed one place available for me to join the next morning! The message was crystal clear. Every call from inside is getting heard and answered!

What an experience over the next couple of days. Being around Mohanji, travelling to Skandavale, sharing auspicious moments of being in the Shakti temple, the Havan and finally the Garuda Prana Pratistha. Those hours were no less than being in the heaven, being with God himself! Even though I had been standing & walking for a long time, trekking up the hills, there was no impact on my rheumatoid arthritis affected feet the next morning. The pain had vanished! After the morning puja at the Ranganath temple, we met Mohanji again and started our return journey to London.

We bid farewell to Mohanji at the airport with a message that we will be eagerly waiting for him to return to London in July! Only His physical body has gone far from London, the eternal Mohanji is in thoughts 24/7!

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6th July 2016:

In the morning, I browsed through Mohanji’s Facebook messages. As usual, I  landed up on Mohanji Gayatri mantra on YouTube and started playing it over and over again. Then, I moved on to one mantra after another sung by Mohanji. Finally, when the alarm rang for my son’s school time, I realised it had been more than an hour! Not usual. What’s so special today? Anyway, I brushed the thought aside and got busy in my normal routines and the day passed by. With my ailment, the fatigue was a bit more that day. In the evening, my husband reminded me about going for the PoP meditation. I woke up, took the phone in hand and saw a new mail. Could it be the mail that I had been eagerly waiting for the past few days? Yes, indeed it was! There was a mail from the Consciousness Kriya team approving my application for initiation to Kriya by Mohanji. Suddenly my fatigue vanished and a gush of energy rushed in. This was overwhelming because I had left the decision quietly to my Guruji. To decide if I was eligible and ready to receive the Kriya from him or not. So this approval was a clear signal for me. Could I be any more fortunate?

5 minutes later, I was at the hall for meditation. Rajshree offered me to light the lamp in front of Mohanji’s photo. Oh, how lucky I am. I got the opportunity to offer aarati to Mohanji before the meditation. Indeed, a lucky day. I offered my thanks silently for approving me for Kriya. I sat on the chair ready for meditation. As soon as I closed my eyes, Mohanji’s face flashed and suddenly remembered – TODAY is Jagannath Rath yatra. This day last year, I met Mohanji for the first time. And then the events from the morning became very clear – singing through Mohanji’s mantras on Jagannath’s Rath yatra day, receiving the Kriya approval mail and the opportunity to light the lamp – all became very clear. Oh, my God, you are indeed with me all the time, in the form of my Guru! Tears kept running through, no binding but those were tears of joy and love of the realisation of my closeness to him! How can I express my gratitude for showering so much love on me?

Finally, the much awaited time came – 19th July to 24th July – Guru Purnima with Guruji, Kriya initiation and Retreat.

I have been showered with the love and blessing of Mohanji. Life is in bliss and only a path of white light that leads to the HOME – the journey from the womb to the womb has begun!

Jai Mohanji!

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The Thread that holds the Beads together

By Nameshri Chetty

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With unwavering faith, trust and love, I write about my story with Mohanji so far…

In April 2014, I received a call from a very dear friend of mine who had an interesting conversation about me at a college mate’s baby shower . She had told me to expect a call that same evening from a lady . At that point in my life, I was going through a bitter divorce ending a lifetime relationship spanning 28 years. I was also totally dedicated to my spiritual path (without any structure) and was completely immersed in the worship of Lord Shiva. Towards the evening, I received a call from Ami who I had never spoken to before. She told me about a Master known as Mohanji and about Kailash. I was overwhelmed with emotions as I was busy watching a TV series called Mahadev and the connection seemed instantaneous. Then and there I decided, “Kailash here I come.” , Please bear in mind that I knew no one, not even Mohanji or what this pilgrimage was about. All I knew was that I was going. I contacted Mohanji’s Facebook profile who asked me to contact the Kailash desk. Within a week, I was booked to leave in 3 months.

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My first encounter with Mohanji was in Kathmandu and that was, as they say, just the beginning (at least to my mind’s knowledge at that time). The Kailash Yatra was indescribable. So much of Shiva’s grace flowed over and through me. I was graced by an amazing Sherpa called Siddha and his pony Tha translating into Siddhatha (another name for Buddha). That by itself speaks of the grace of Mohanji. Many had experiences that they would say tested them, but for me, I was just shown care and protection throughout my Yatra . My Sherpa just showered me with unconditional love, care, and respect . Of course, it was always Mohanji in the background as usual.

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On returning from Kailash, Mohanji’s graced flowed through each day. I had a dream where I saw Mohanji in different colored spotlights. I would have normally chosen green but I chose charcoal the color of Kailash . There I heard the Divine say, “Mohanji is Kailash”. Managing to live a normal life after Kailash becomes very touch and go, as you see what real living is about, after you have been exposed to the grace of a Master and been in the sacred space that is Kailash. It is your connection to the source. All other things fall away .

It was January 2015. I had been faced with a very tough decision of asking my children to both go and live with their father as the home environment became very toxic. As any parent knows, we live for our children and we never want to be separated from them. But as I spoke to them about leaving, a certain calm came over me. I spoke to them rationally and confidently. I realized once they had left that it was actually Mohanji that was there holding my hand. That same day. I spoke to him only for him to validate that he was. He told me to lead by example and be the Lioness that I am. Gosh! It was time to be a big girl now. First, my marriage was all that I ever knew. Then it was my children. All that I was living for was gone. 😱

As the days turned into weeks into months, I started filling all my free time and, trust me I had lots, with strengthening my connection with Mohanji . And boy, did it get strong. Mohanji ‘s constant message be it via dreams or through interactions was it will be okay. As time went on, I realized why there are many many tests when one chooses this path. The biggest test is detachment. All that I thought was ME (or I thought defined ME) was taken away. All that I chose to live for and serve was taken away and all that was left was the real ME.

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I became aware and felt the teachings of Mohanji about connecting to the source of the person rather than the personality. I started to live with detachment. I did question my behavior at times. Like questions on my choice as a mother to live without my children, on my being unaffected by their lack of interaction with me. People started seeing me as aloof. I knew that I must love unconditionally from a distance and that Mohanji has my back. I lived and breathed Mohanji’s teachings “live by example”, “be the lioness”, and “love unconditionally”

In November 2015, I went to India on the Kumbhakonam retreat with Mohanji. It was a tough decision as my son turned 21 and daughter turned 13 two milestone birthdays. Considering that they had no contact with me, I was in a dilemma. Knowing my children, I would never hear the end of it if I had left them and gone during their birthdays irrespective of their standing in our relationship. During one of my meditation, it was a clear message from Mohanji that I should go. I then arranged for birthday cakes, cards and gifts for them while I was away. During this retreat, I felt a shift in me. As usual, in the very unassuming way that only Mohanji can be, he in passing said that it will be okay .It was on this trip that I fully surrendered to the grace that is Mohanji . That same December, both my son and daughter came back home. Yay, they were back. They came back as changed children to a changed mother.

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The children embraced their lesson of separation. They also embraced Mohanji’s presence both in my life and theirs as they came back to a home that was fully present with Mohanji’s grace. The children started to smell the fragrance of burning incense (usually the way Mohanji makes his presence felt) throughout the night and day. They even heard footsteps at night.

It was during one of the morning meditations  when I received a very clear message from Mohanji. It went something like this, “We are love. We only want to give love.” Whilst in that space of communication with Mohanji, I saw how I was protected and held closely by Mohanji through each and every step of my life. When I filed for divorce  in 2012, I had no idea what it was like to fend for myself. I hadn’t even paid a bill by myself ever. I had no  bank account. I had no idea of how the real world worked. Yet, I took the leap.

I was introduced to a great lawyer that took on my case. I overcame each hurdle of the difficult process. How many would ask ? It was always Mohanji’s grace. When my human mind felt tired and my heart was empty. he filled with hope. There was never a point where I was unable to do or be what I needed to. I was a single mother yet no one had taken advantage of me or my children (considering the times we live in). When I needed something, there was always someone there to assist me. When I was 500km away from home and needed brakes on my car, a distant relative offered his car (it was a Range Rover) whilst he fixed my car and drove it up to me for free. And, and, and… Mohanji was with me through each and every step of my life even before I knew of him.

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I realized that, although I had been through many a hardship, I somehow managed to be happy, optimistic and hopeful. Always trusting that tomorrow would be better and that people are good. I now saw the thread, that was Mohanji, that held all my life experiences together. I was now able to feel that we are love. So why not show it? This happened shortly before Mohanji’s South African visit.

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Mohanji’s visit to SA is a blur for me as I was immersed in service , gratitude and love for him and all that was possible in my position. I had asked my once-reluctant children to join in the retreat and, to my joy, they agreed . When they first met Mohanji, there was an automatic trust that had formed. Trust me! I too was shocked as they did not ask, even once, to leave the weekend program. Instead, they assisted where they could. How things had changed… Though the one thing that I do remember from the South African retreat is Mohanji’s capacity to be everything at anytime, anywhere . He managed to make each and everyone feel as if He was with them .

Mere (My in Hindi) Mahadev, I surrender graciously and humbly at your feet, for you are the beginning and end of all that is not.

Thank you my dearest Mohanji , much love always your forever grateful Nameshri