By Neeti Nagpal Roy
Saturday, June 14, 2014
Since some days I had been postponing meditation with my mind finding one reason or the other to support my laziness. (Apologies Mohanji, I mostly try to follow what you say but this time I got carried away.) However since a couple of days back, I had been receiving these ‘gentle’ reminders to meditate through various sources (from Him of course). While doing my daily chores late evening today, I started feeling Mohanji’s strong presence around me. At first I thought it to be my imagination but with every passing minute His presence felt stronger. He was ‘compelling’ me to sit for meditation as soon as I can. And, I did what He said.
After putting my son to sleep I decided to sit for meditation myself (next to my sleeping son because I somehow feel he will benefit from it even if he is sleeping ). I tried to look for my headphones so that I could play the POP meditation and listen to it with my headphones, so as not to wake him up. But strangely I was just not able to find them. Something told me that I should forget about the headphones and “just sit now” with as little volume as possible – and my son will keep sleeping without any disturbance! I followed.
As soon as I started the meditation I started feeling very pure inside. I do feel this usually by the end of the meditation, but today was different. I have never ever felt so pure and so much filled with love within during any of meditations. As soon as I started, I saw myself sitting on a lotus flower and in front of me was Goddess Saraswati with a Vina in her hand, sitting on another huge lotus.
(I do believe in Goddess Saraswati, but I’m a devotee of Shiv-Shakti. So, I have really never meditated upon Her. But I am extremely grateful to Her that She came to bless me.) As soon as She left, I started feeling as if I was transparent – I had no mass – just felt myself to be a combination of several light particles. I could see above me the vast ring of strong Supreme Divine Light. I felt to be a tiny part of this vast source. This Supreme Light was showering on me with all its brightness, purity, and love. It was passing through my light-being and spreading all around the world – similar to the concept of refraction. This feeling of being transparent and a ‘light-being’ stayed for most of the part of the meditation.
A little later while blessing everyone, I felt as if I have not two but four very powerful hands – two on each side – blessing everyone around me. I was feeling so pure and so truly filled with love throughout the meditation… I have really never felt so much of purity and so much love within me till now…it was overflowing! Every time during the blessing mode, I do bless even a handful of people who I feel not so good about. But there is always some kind of conscious effort in that. However, this time, I felt absolutely nothing – everyone was same to me, be it my blood relatives or people I don’t know so well. All were same for me; I couldn’t differentiate my feelings for any of them. I just felt that I am a medium of light who has no feelings for anyone- good or bad, does not have a physical body, and is here in the world only to witness a story.
I also felt as if I am holding something extremely heavy at this time, as if a huge responsibility (may be, not sure) but my hands/arms felt as thin as a straw.
Later in the course of meditation when Mohanji asks to focus on third-eye, I saw Mohanji right in front of me. He was sitting in a meditative position too. A strong beam of white light emerged from His third-eye and entered my third-eye. I felt some energy has struck me and my body started shivering. It was after this that I somewhat felt my physical body. The beautiful feeling of being just a ‘compilation of light particles – without any mass’ was leaving now. But I’m still feeling extremely light, so light that I think I can even fly … ha ha ha!
Thanks dear Master for showering Your unconditional love and blessings… (words fail me to say anything else)