(Trip to Tapovan with Mohanji – experiences of Dr. Deepali)
Lahiri Mahashaya Samadhi at Haridwar
The same day afternoon, Abhishek took us to Lahiri Mahashaya’s Samadhi in Haridwar. A calm and serene place. As soon as we entered, we prayed at the Devi temple on the right side of the compound. While we were praying, a flower fell from her garland, as if in acknowledgement of our prayers…
We went to the Samadhi. Mohanji closed his eyes and communed with the great Master Lahiri Mahashaya at His samadhi. After spending some time at the Samadhi, Abhishek took us upstairs to the Shivaling installed on the terrace in a small temple. Mohanji sat cross-legged in meditation in front of the Shivaling for some time and did abhishekum again. He then came to Nandi and kept his hands on Nandi with steady gaze at Shivaling.
Powerful energy was oozing out through his eyes. His aura changed completely – he looked as if he was in a complete trance. His eyes had become red. Later he said: “Nandi is one of the greatest and most powerful amongst Siddhas. He chose to be with Shiva and serve Shiva as His vehicle. A great Master indeed!!!.” He must have had a strong communion with Nandi…
An interesting tangible experience of Mohanish who stays in Pune, India
At this juncture, I must take you to another incident which was happening simultaneously with my son, Mohanish Jaju. I came to know of it the same evening, when we returned to the ashram. I saw many missed calls from Mohanish. So, I called him. This is what he narrated… on phone…
“…..this afternoon I was playing tabla. There was a strong and unusual pull towards sitting in meditation. The pull was so strong that I could not resist. I saw myself in the Jangli Maharaj temple, along with my grandmother (Jangli Maharaj temple is a powerful place in Pune, India, with a beautiful Shivaling installed in a cave). I saw Mohanji and Shivaling. He was intensely involved in the pooja. Suddenly Lord Nandi appeared. I cannot clearly mention whether Mohanji was talking to him or blessing him. I have never had a vision of Lord Nandi before. This meditation was extremely strong. I feel so light after this spontaneous meditation!….. mamma, I was trying to reach you desperately to convey this experience!!
I was surprised. Mohanish was just overflowing on the phone with great excitement. His experience happened exactly at the same time when Mohanji was communing with Nandi and Shiva at the Lahiri Mahashaya Samadhi. Mohanish was deeply touched by the experience and felt a big transformation in him. He was also surprised that, without ‘doing’ anything, he went into deep meditation. Then slowly, I told him today’s story of Vashishta cave, Lahiri Mahashaya’s Samadhi and Mohanji’s intense communion with Nandi…….Mohanish could not believe that he experienced everything that Mohanji did, sitting so far away in Pune…. His connectivity with Mohanji is so strong, that no words, phone calls or communication is needed to taste Mohanji’s consciousness from anywhere and be with Him always. What a connectivity! This was another lesson for me, about the realms of the higher, as well as the super connectivity beyond any barriers.
Later on, Mohanji commented: “Mohanish follows me where ever I go. He is very strongly connected with me. Most of the times, he operates within my consciousness. He wants to serve me, to serve the humanity. He follows me with very pure consciousness and selfless intentions. These sort of tangible experiences are possible due to this connectivity. This can happen to anyone who operates with firm faith and perfect unconditionality. He experiences and remembers what happened at higher dimensions too. This is because of Grace. Otherwise, we will experience and forget.”
Another strange incidence that happened at this place:
After these amazing moments filled with divinity, we decided to go to Har ki Pauri. When we were walking towards the car, we saw an old man standing under a tree. He looked like a farmer.When we were to get into the car and start our onward journey,Mohanji again looked at this old man standing under the neem tree where our car was parked. I was sure that this man was not there when we arrived at the place.
Mohanji told me to give him 100 Rupees. He was not a beggar. I got out of the car and went to the old man and gave him the money.When I gave him 100Rs, he said, ‘Mataji, hamse naraj ho kya…(Mataji are you upset with me?).’ I answered, “Not at all, we are happy with you. This money is sent to you by Mohanji.” At that moment, tears of joy flowed from the eyes of the old man. He came running to the car, opened the door where Mohanji was sitting, and touched his feet. He could not speak. He had no words and voice to thank him. Mohanji quietly said, “Aap chinta nahi karo. Gharme sab kuchh thik ho jayega…..(Do not worry. Everything will settle in your house).” With this statement that old man melted all the more. There was a twinkle in his eyes and he gave Mohanji a very familiar look as if someone really heard his prayers. Later on Mohanji said, “This man has many problems at home. He has been praying to Lord Shiva and crying. He was angry and upset with Shiva that He was not listening to his prayers. Today it got fulfilled. He will be fine from today. Baba will take care of him. The money we gave is a debt repaid. He borrowed some money and did worship. We returned that money. No need to do worship or offer anything when the inner space is pure, selfless and clean.”
Abhishek and I fell into silence. It was difficult for us to comprehend all that. We both were far away from understanding these subtle phenomena. We were in for surprise after surprise. Mohanji did not even expect or wait to accept “thanks” from him… following the perfect Siddha Tradition. He was not even owning this deed. He asked me to perform this duty and was sitting in the car, looking outside, as if nothing was happening. He always tells us: “Do your dharma and walk away. Do not expect / wait for thanks!”
I have always observed that Mohanji is not attached to any of his actions. He just performs the required deed and walks away without any attachments. There is a certain spontaneity in all his actions. Nothing is deliberate or artificial. This makes it even more difficult for a city being, who operates on set patterns, expectation and standards, to move with him, as he is so unpredictable. A great lesson – attachments and expectations breed sorrows.
Har ki Pauri (meaning ‘divine feet’) is a famous spiritual place. It is the place where a drop of Amrit (divine nectar) fell when Garuda was carrying it. It is a place where Kumbhamela is held at, every 4 years. The most recent Kumbhamela was in March 2010. I was eager to bathe in Ganga at Har ki Pauri. It is said that it cleanses our karmas and sins of many life times.
I am sorry to state the filth we saw at Har ki Pauri. The place was full of rotten food, flies, bad smell and what not. This is an important spiritual place. It is probably difficult to maintain it due to millions of people attending with great faith. When I expressed this concern to Mohanji, he simply said, “Does it really matter how the place is? Do external situations matter at all? Of course, we must preserve the cleanliness of our surroundings. Yet, what really matters is the cleanliness of your inner space. Har ki Pauri has spiritual significance. Is it that all those who come here really get transformed? NO. Transformation depends upon your purity, faith and surrender. Bathing in Ganga is important as there is no river on earth like mother Ganga, but later on one should take efforts to maintain that inner cleanliness too. We have to preserve our inner purity through selfless thoughts, words and action. Do we actually do that?” Those words had the power to pierce the strongest mental blocks. He had a strong point here. I thought, ignorant people throw dead bodies of their relatives in Ganga, with the belief that the dead relative will attain salvation. Unless inner purity is achieved, salvation is impossible. The dead body will only pollute our beloved mother Ganga. Mohanji was so true.
Abhishek became silent
From Har Ki Pauri, we had to go to bus station to drop Abhishek. He was to go back to Delhi. Abhishek had so many questions in the beginning. He was extremely talkative and pouring out theoretical knowledge where ever possible. He had many references to quote! He had read a lot of literature. He was eager to be with Mohanji, share his thoughts and ideas, and take Mohanji’s advice.
I have witnessed Mohanji patiently answering all his questions, sometimes softly, at times in a harsh/Shaivic way. His answers directly affected Abhishek. He slowly melted and became quiet and introverted. He started looking inward. By second day, he was not interested in asking any more questions! He took all ups and downs with Mohanji. He had great perseverance. It was wonderful to witness transformation in Abhishek. He was question-less by the time he left. I witnessed perfect shanti in his eyes…
Here are some of Abhishek’s experiences in his words:
“….While I was reading “The Autobiography of a Yogi”, I had deep desire to have mystical experiences in the Himalayas. In Vashishtha cave, I sat on the rock next to Mohanji. I entered a deep state of meditation, where, I could see Mohanji’s many past lives, which he confirmed as true to me on the way back, to the Ashram. I could clearly see his many forms. Mohanji explained to me that Lahiri Mahashaya is not different from Babaji. And that Babaji will appear to us in the form we can understand, because the deathless Yogi is beyond mind & forms.
With every passing moment I discovered the depths of my own being. With each successive experience, my spirit ascended higher. I learned not to get caught up in the visions as well as visualizations, fascinating as they were, but to keep moving beyond them.I will never forget this journey with Mohanji. I hope I will be able to travel with him again. It is not easy, but it is not impossible.…..”
Dear Abhishek, thanks for being there, otherwise I would have never seen Mohanji in this consistent mode of elevating the consciousness of a seeker. Let me tell you ….Mohanji never speaks in vain. Mohanji’s words directly hit our shushumna (at the spine) and Kundalini – deep cleansing and transformation is then inevitable.
Graceful Shaivik walk across Ram Jhula
Next day, September 1st, 2010, was the day of Janmashtami and also death anniversary of Mohanji’s daughter Ammu. Every year, Mohanji reaches Shivananda Ghat on Janmashtami day to perform the rituals related to Ammu’s death anniversary. According to the custom, if the child died when it was below 5 years, there is no need to perform any rituals every year. When I asked Mohanji why he does it, he said ” I consider her as elder to me, because, soul-wise, she indeed was elder to me, and in physical plane, she left before me. Thirdly, I use this opportunity to offer prayers to all the ancestors of our Bharadwaja gothra (clan) who died in the past, and who are not remembered. ”
The rituals of death anniversary were to start at 11am at Shivananda Ghat. The time was 10.40am. Mohanji suddenly said, “Let’s go to Geeta Bhavan to buy a few dhotis (long cloth which is tied around the waist and offered to Brahmin priests as part of the ceremonial gift).” Geeta Bhavan was almost 2 kilometers away across Ganga (on the other side) and we had to cross Ram Jhula – all this in 20 min, as the priest was expected at exactly 11AM.
He just started walking at full speed. He was walking straight back with long steps. Even at that speed, he had an unusually beautiful grace to his gait. We reached Geetha Bhavan, selected the garments, got it packed and paid, and we returned to this side of Ganga with the dhotis in only 16min!! It was a complete Shaivic walk. On any other circumstance, I would call this whole feat an impossibility!!! I was after him juggling between my bags and camera and trying to click photos and catch up with his speed. 🙂
What really surprised the medical doctor in me was that he was not at all tired or panting after this super fast walk, and most surprisingly, neither was I panting! My heart rate did not change much, which normally it should. I did not even feel that we walked so fast, shopped and came back! It was all in a daze or trance kind of situation. I was as normal as I could be and so was he. What a graceful walk. Were we walking on the earth or was it a walk in the 5th dimension, on a different plane of existence?!! I am really sure that this is impossible in normal conditions.
(To be continued….)